Worried about kyo

[-rika- shinya`]

I think he did it himself because it it backwards, like maybe he looked in a mirror while doing it?

i noticed that too. and Hide's passing was horrible. there's no one who wants the same about kyo.

and their music was dark from beginning till now (remember mazohyst of decadence among many others)i think it was a different way to express it with each album ..

 

[Grandiose Delusion]

If you knew Kyo, you'd know why we worry about things like this. ;_;

Yes, because you're Kyo's best friend that knows ALL HIS SECRETS.

You know him no better than anybody else on this forum.

 

[R e i - R e i]

Woah.
That's really Serious.
I'd be extremely sad if something bad were to happen to him.
And so would all of his Fans.
T.T
I don't know how I could really listen to Diru anymore,If kyo wasn't there...

 

[grenadeglovegirl]

I say we send him something! Soooo, anyone want to help me plan this? Haha, maybe it would cheer him up. :/

 

[Champloo]

Yes, because you're Kyo's best friend that knows ALL HIS SECRETS.
You know him no better than anybody else on this forum.

Try me *** hole I swear.

ANyways, I am drawing a piccu for him. Like that will help, but hey atleast it's something

 

[grenadeglovegirl]

That may help! Hehe. Do you know the adress to send things to? I've only ever sent an email...

 

[Placebo]

if they do infact go to sxsw and there is a way to get a ticket for only one show or just to see them I think that would be the perfect time for fans to do something for him

 

[Grandiose Delusion]

Try me *** hole I swear.
ANyways, I am drawing a piccu for him. Like that will help, but hey atleast it's something

I'm not doing or saying anything that's remotely *******-ish. All i'm doing is speaking the truth. If that makes me an *******, then so be it. Bring it on.

 

[Yokan]

Yes, because you're Kyo's best friend that knows ALL HIS SECRETS.
You know him no better than anybody else on this forum.

I have to agree with Jemi[Grandiose Delusion], sorry. Where did this arise from, the picture of him with No future on his chest? it could have been just from a photo collection. I personally think he is alright, but he releases his emotion through singing.

with that in mind, i wouldn't listen to diru anymore without kyo either, he is too important. KYO FANS ESEMBLE! Send him a letter from 'all the fans from jref' or something.

y0kan

 

[Champloo]

I DIDNT SAY I KNEW HIM OR WTFEVER! JEEZ I WAS JUST SAYING THAT IF YOU KNEW HOW BAD HE GETS..*shuts up* ._.;; Lets just start over ok, mmk GD?

 

[dniwer]

I don't think the "no future" thing is anything to worry about. I mean, he wrote in English for goodness sakes, that's a pretty good indication that he was doing it for others to see and, well, I don't want to use the word 'spectacle', but he obviously did THAT specific thing to get a rise out of people. I do, however, think that he has some real emotional issues, but he releases them through Diru's music and being on stage. The stage cutting he normally does I'd say is also a part of that emotional release and though I do find it a bit disturbing, I understand why he does it and if that's the way he chooses to let out his emotions then so be it. I hate to say it, but it's better than other things he could be doing to channel those feelings. The 'no future' thing, though, isn't something that really alarms me.

 

[grenadeglovegirl]

Yeah I was wondering about the whole English thing. Hmmm

 

[Anchyyy]

I agree with you sunsweet. On the other side, what if someone hurts him real bad and he feels he needs to cut himself and he cuts to deep?

 

[-Lucifer-]

i agree with sunsweet
hm... but i was thinking if its just a make-up and that its not really real one... still that Kyo has been hurting him self on stage :?

 

[neostereo]

Well, we all know he said he has tried to commit suicide and all that stuff, but we don't know why because he claims it's a story too sad to tell. I don't think he would be running there with his jacket open, showing that carving to all his fans IF he really was going to end his days. So, I sometimes think about his mental health, but I don't think he's going to just kill himself. Though if I'm wrong about this, someone could kindly kill me too TT____TT.

/slaps self, he's not going to do that >-<

 

[*Ev3*]

its so impossible to know. i was just so very sad to see the pictures.
i knew that Kyo hurts himself before and sometimes. but i had hope that its a release for him .. and he dont then feel the drive to kill himself.
I still hope that.
I was someone else wondering about the English. but .. who knows ?
Also .. he must have want or not mind people to see it, because he let a picture be taken .. picture thats not just privat but found its way onto the net.

It is very lonely in that place. Its hard to have a person close to you at all, because theres always the feeling maybe they only act as "friend" because there "fan" of some sort. ( apart from a child hood friend ).

All the same, i think fan project is a good idea.
everyone feel helpless.

 

[Dollporn]

When I first read about it I thought "so what? It's clowned, it's his image", because he's been doing this from the start, and though I think it's based on his personal problems I doubt it's something he like, needs to do not to explode, when he usually rips his wrists open with his nails on stage.
But I must say the pictures of that carving did actually do a much bigger impression on me than I thought it would...

 

[Champloo]

its so impossible to know. i was just so very sad to see the pictures.
i knew that Kyo hurts himself before and sometimes. but i had hope that its a release for him .. and he dont then feel the drive to kill himself.
I still hope that.
I was someone else wondering about the English. but .. who knows ?
Also .. he must have want or not mind people to see it, because he let a picture be taken .. picture thats not just privat but found its way onto the net.

It is very lonely in that place. Its hard to have a person close to you at all, because theres always the feeling maybe they only act as "friend" because there "fan" of some sort. ( apart from a child hood friend ).

All the same, i think fan project is a good idea.
everyone feel helpless.

Yeah, how's to say if we pull to gether and do something for him that he will never see it. He just might so yeah. ^^ And, I agree that the english thing is wierd. Also, the fact that Kyo doesn't really open up, and yet, he let the pictures be taken also makes me not worry as I did the first time I saw it. Maybe it was just him letting feelings out and we are making a big deal over nothing. But, it would be nice to do something for him to put him in a good mood.

 

[Riyko]

Those two pictures of kyo with the carving in his chest are in their fan club magazine so the only people who get access to those pictures are the fan club members unless you buy the magazines from ebay which alot of fan club members do is sell them online. Just for your information I thought that i'd share that heh

 

[Kinsao]

I'm always sad to think of Kyo hurting himself.
I think I've written about that before somewhere.
Needless to say, the thought of him committing suicide is just too horrible to think about, and I can only hope.

It's true that for a long time he has habitually hurt himself. I did hope that it might prove for him a way of coping with the emotional pain, and by that way, prevent suicide. And I guess I also hoped that maybe eventually he could find other ways of coping, rather than hurting himself. So I'm very sad to think this problem might be getting worse, rather than better.

It appears that a number of people here have also self-harmed, so you know that knowing you have friends who care about you and don't want you to do it, doesn't make the slightest of difference.

So, it's really difficult to think of anything possible to do to try and help Kyo. It's next to impossible to help someone very close to you, let alone someone you don't actually know. But I think the idea of some kind of fan project is a good one, because in fact that is about all we can do. And just because it's not possible to do much, doesn't mean we shouldn't do anything.

I think it's a bit... not sure of the word... odd (?) that Kyo displays the carvings in pictures in the fan club magazine. Because that is more of showman than I would have expected. ☝ To do cuttings in a live, that's different, because then, emotions are running high. And also to cut in private, that's another matter too. But to cut a phrase 'in cold blood' so to speak (not during live performance), and then rather choose to display it afterwards rather than keep it hidden... that's some different kind of mentality, it seems to me. I don't know what you think?

In any case, I can only hope for the best.
It really hurts my heart to think of Kyo suffering.

 

[hebiichigo]

When I looked again at the scan of the entire page these pictures come from (in haiiro no ginka), I realised there was text underneath the pictures.

You can see the text here.
In Japanese:

RH窶堙ｰﾂ終窶堋ｦ窶堋ｽﾅ?y窶ｰﾂｮ窶堙?、窶ｹﾅｾ窶堋ｪ窶ｹﾂｾ窶堙嫁津ｼ窶堋ｩ窶堙≫?堋ｽ窶堙懌?堙愬?ﾃｧ窶堙ｰﾋ彡窶堙溪?堙??堋｢窶堋ｽﾂ。
窶拜窶堋ｫﾂ最ｾ窶堙樞?堙?、窶堋ｻ窶堙娯?ｹﾂｹ窶堙俄?堙債"窶嗄窶堋鞘?啼窶壺?｢窶壺?昶?壺?｢窶壺?吮?壺?ｦﾂ"窶堙娯?｢ﾂｶﾅｽﾅ｡ﾂ…窶堙懌?堋ｾﾅ椎停?堋ｪﾅｸﾃｸ窶堙敖出窶堋ｵ窶堙??堋｢窶堙ｩﾂ。ﾂ"窶督｢窶藩??堙坂?堙遺?堋｢ﾂ"ﾂ…ﾂ債｡窶堙??堋｢窶堋､ﾂ瞬ﾅ?ﾃ披?堙可、窶啀窶怒窶啀窶怒窶堙娯?嗅窶喇窶嗽窶單窶堙俄?徠窶堋ｯ窶堙ｩ窶?窶堋｢窶堙ｰﾅｽﾂｩ窶堙ｧ窶堋ｻ窶堙娯?ｹﾂｹ窶堙可債鞘?堙ｱ窶堙?、窶堋ｱ窶堙娯?愿ｺ窶ｹﾅｾ窶堙哉湛ﾆ弾ﾂーﾆ淡窶堙問?堙?津ｼ窶堋ｩ窶堙≫?堋ｽﾂ。

And my bad translation x_x;

In the dressing room after RH (rehearsal?) finished, Kyo screwed up his face while facing the mirror.
If we look closer, the words ﾂ"No Futureﾂ" are on his chestﾂ… Blood is starting to run out again. ﾂ"There is no futureﾂ"ﾂ… At that moment, Kyo headed to the stage on this day with the feelings he gambles on each Live carved into his chest.

He did this after rehearsal (if RH does mean rehearsal..) and before a live.
(I think) he has said before that he puts feeling into even the rehearsals, so maybe that affected him too much this time.

 

[Child_prey]

Kyo has had a painful upbringing, people betrayed him over and over again.

He had a girlfriend, that he was planning to marry, but she left him without saying a word and dated his friend. Kyo didn't find out about this before after a couple of years. He trusted his friend and that girl and they just lied to him. They didn't even say; "Kyo, I'm leaving you for your friend, bye!" That is just so f***ed up!!!! Who the hell does that???????
The song Tayio no ao is about that, you can see the pain in his eyes in that clip... I can't even watch it....
He said that it was a very painful time for him and that he wanted to commit suicide and almost did.

Reading his lyrics, you realise that he suffers. He hates himself and hates others for hurting him. That's why he cuts himself. I know that he is a good man, he has a good heart and that he wouldn't want to hurt anyone like people have hurt him. Just writing about this makes me want to cry....

Cutting is a way to get out angst and anger, but I believe that people shouldn't have to go that far as to mark their body for life, that just reminds you of the pain you felt/feel.
He doesn't care anymore, the hate has taken over him and his body is his tool to show his pain.

As I said, it's just the feeling I get, that he will end his life. The pain is just to big. And this situation reminds me of Kurt Cobain, full of angst and hate. He had money, a wife, career, but those things didn't help him, they didn't take away the pain.

I'm all for the make something for him and send it. If anyone has a good idea of what to do then just tell us and we will get to work. He needs to know that we care about him and understand his pain, that we are thinking of him.

 

[neostereo]

I will join too if someone has an idea. ._.

 

[Nicky]

Maybe he doesn't see himself having a future? Which is silly because he has a good career and people who care about him very much.

It isn't silly. For a suicidal person, it doesn't matter how many friends or family members you have around, or how great your career is. You'll find a way to convince yourself that they aren't really there, or that they'll be better off without you.
If he is suicidal, to him, to his reality, there is no future. But that's just my opinion.
I hope he isn't suicidal.

 

[j0ylucky]

I hope so too.. :\