Most memorable J-rocker moment!

[phantasmagoria]

eeeeee no Horizon don't hurt yourself! There's still too many Jrocker cookies to be made, if nothing else! Think of how involved you are here... Your average is about 9 posts per day, and jref wouldn't be the same without them! I've only been here a few weeks and you seem nice enough as long as no one pisses you off... Nice people are already enough of a minority without them killing themselves off!

Sorry if that didn't help... I just said what made sense to me

 

[Liliai]

Yes I would follow you Blue even if Nightwalker wouldn't because that would be two of my friends who would kill themselves for something that started becausen of my and my ignorence. (i don't know if that is spelt right) I am sorry that I inertuputed you (Gauh I hate spelling) I would kill myself before any of you...Me I am the one who does not deseve to live. You do not deseve to die. just beacuse there are people in this world who are jerks and are very ignorent like me and who do deseve to die. I hate thinking this but it is true. But I know that nothing is sovled by people killing themselves, because when people do that then other people kill themselves and it is a big killing fest. Maybe we could get in the geunise book for most people dying because of one stupid person <--- ME! Ok i will stop now gettting upset. And being in class were I need to write down stuff really doesn't help. Oh Horzion why weren't you in class?

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

Nooo... I should just shut up... now every is killing themselves... stupid stupid Pinkkiller... fix you English

 

[Blue Flames]

We never were friends there, brilliant one...Or at least not after that insulting-fess we had in math class...

And if I ever did kill myself and you did it then I'd have to kill you.
And don't make me laugh...

I was just trying to be nice and stop all this fighting, that's all. And I never said we were ever friends just that I wasn't going to be after I tried to be nice.

Yes I would follow you Blue even if Nightwalker wouldn't because that would be two of my friends who would kill themselves for something that started becausen of my and my ignorence. (i don't know if that is spelt right) I am sorry that I inertuputed you (Gauh I hate spelling) I would kill myself before any of you...Me I am the one who does not deseve to live. You do not deseve to die. just beacuse there are people in this world who are jerks and are very ignorent like me and who do deseve to die. I hate thinking this but it is true. But I know that nothing is sovled by people killing themselves, because when people do that then other people kill themselves and it is a big killing fest. Maybe we could get in the geunise book for most people dying because of one stupid person <--- ME! Ok i will stop now gettting upset. And being in class were I need to write down stuff really doesn't help. Oh Horzion why weren't you in class?

Maybe we should all go join some Suicide Club or something. Just Kidding, no one is going to kill them self'. Hopefully.....

 

[Nightwalker]

Ya I'm sure he was just trying to be nice Horizon.

As I said before there's only one reason why I would attempt to hurt myself seriously or attempt to kill myself. Though the girls didn't like me talking bout things that way and to get my mind out of it also. Thank you for caring Liliai. Hahaha I was slightly silly of thinking that way though I can see myself doing that for that one cause. I can't believe I brought this up again. Bad me! Bad! *smacks self*

I don't know if I could really forgive Horizon...she doesn't have to forgive me at all that I ignore her or anything. Just still upset about the things you said. It's kinda funny in this way but see it like this:

How can someone who truely cares about you can say the meanest things ever?

 

[Horizon]

eeeeee no Horizon don't hurt yourself! There's still too many Jrocker cookies to be made, if nothing else! Think of how involved you are here... Your average is about 9 posts per day, and jref wouldn't be the same without them! I've only been here a few weeks and you seem nice enough as long as no one pisses you off... Nice people are already enough of a minority without them killing themselves off!

Sorry if that didn't help... I just said what made sense to me

Hehe! xD It kind of made me giggle...xD And it makes sense and it helped at least a wee bit. Thanks!

Yes I would follow you Blue even if Nightwalker wouldn't because that would be two of my friends who would kill themselves for something that started becausen of my and my ignorence. (i don't know if that is spelt right) I am sorry that I inertuputed you (Gauh I hate spelling) I would kill myself before any of you...Me I am the one who does not deseve to live. You do not deseve to die. just beacuse there are people in this world who are jerks and are very ignorent like me and who do deseve to die. I hate thinking this but it is true. But I know that nothing is sovled by people killing themselves, because when people do that then other people kill themselves and it is a big killing fest. Maybe we could get in the geunise book for most people dying because of one stupid person <--- ME! Ok i will stop now gettting upset. And being in class were I need to write down stuff really doesn't help. Oh Horzion why weren't you in class?

Grrrr...Don't make me hit you...And I think that sums it up right there. but just incase it didn't...: It's not YOUR fault! Like I've already said, I let things pile up and whatnot, until I just explode. So, really, ANYONE or ANYTHING
could have set me off. You're one of the only ones that treat me half-way nicely anyway...So yesh, sorry I blew up on you.

And because I was pissed again xDD

I was just trying to be nice and stop all this fighting, that's all. And I never said we were ever friends just that I wasn't going to be after I tried to be nice.





Maybe we should all go join some Suicide Club or something. Just Kidding, no one is going to kill them self'. Hopefully.....

No crap. I kind of knew that you see...I just had a lack of anything else to say...

Meh...-shrugs-

Ya I'm sure he was just trying to be nice Horizon.

As I said before there's only one reason why I would attempt to hurt myself seriously or attempt to kill myself. Though the girls didn't like me talking bout things that way and to get my mind out of it also. Thank you for caring Liliai. Hahaha I was slightly silly of thinking that way though I can see myself doing that for that one cause. I can't believe I brought this up again. Bad me! Bad! *smacks self*

I don't know if I could really forgive Horizon...she doesn't have to forgive me at all that I ignore her or anything. Just still upset about the things you said. It's kinda funny in this way but see it like this:

How can someone who truely cares about you can say the meanest things ever?

And you see it like this: How can someone who cares even in the slightest treat me like you do? Continously? When I've told you over and over and over again that I don't like it?

And haven't I TOLD you MILLIONS of times already anyway...?

You treat a dog like sh*t and, eventually, it's not going to like you anymore. How can you manage to think that you treat ANYTHING like sh*t, but at the same time they'd be completely and utterly docile about it...? Just stop for a second, calm down, and REALLY think about it. It makes a WHOLE lot of sense if you do.

And, if you don't mind, I REALLY do not apreciate being talked about behind my back. So the least you could do is do it when I'm not there...I know it's called "talking behind someone's back", but you're not actually supposed to almost be literally behind the person's back. Nor should you really talk that loudly either...Both of those things really just kill the point of talking behind someone's back, ne?

And I actually wasn't trying to be mean. Those are just what I thought/think, so, finally, I got them of my bloody chest (feels a LOT better actually...).

And meh if you can...I can't, so whatever. I hate to type this, but since I'm SO tired of crying because of you all, I'm taking people's advice and getting some new friends (plus Christine is kind of scary...-shudders-).

Oh and then the entire "talking behind my back" thing, that completely dried up anything and all of whatever. Like for example, what little trust in you I had...

And see? THAT's why I don't tell people stuff!

And besides from that, even if you did forgive me (even though I did absolutely nothing wrong in my opinion), you wouldn't change. You wouldn't even ATTEMPT at treating me half-way "humanely" here. I've told you, like, at least 5 times that I don't like how you treat me and you still didn't even try. And I've given you WAY too many chances here with no result/change whatsoever so meh...I'm throwing in the towel. I've tried for MONTHS and I'm tired of it all. Especially since you totally just let Christine go entirely...Argh...Nevermind. You'd probably just go psycho on my ***...Like per usual...

Plus, plus, plus! You guys are the source, or at least the MAIN source, of all my little depression and what thoughts of suicide/hurting myself come from, so it's really quite hazardous to my health to even attempt being, ahem..."Friends" again.

And you think THAT is me being mean...? Ha! It just REALLY goes to show how much you know NOTHING about me! It's almost funny actually!

Nooo... I should just shut up... now every is killing themselves... stupid stupid Pinkkiller... fix you English

Your English is quite good actually...xDDD

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

Your English is quite good actually...xDDD

Hehe...

 

[Nightwalker]

Well, fine then. But let me say not even I can fit into your prefect decription of your "friend". I can't change myself. It's too hard. If I was a totally waste of time being your friend then go ahead and say so. Oh and you freak out too so shut up. You should really listen you YOURself. Freak out over the stupidest sh*t. Your always think YOUR right and if no one agrees with you you completely ignore the person for like the whole day. Sounds just like my ex-boyfriend. Sad. Sorry to say that but it is what it seems. Well, if you no longer want to be a part of my life then just say the word. Because I can't stand someone who acts like this. You can't complain about how I act all the time. It was great when we never fought and we hung out all the time. I don't even know what happened. It's too bad that we went downhill. We had a really good friendship but I guess since were complaining about each other now it's different.

She asked me what was going on. You piss me off and I know I piss you off too so you don't have to tell me. But, sometimes...the things you say...especailly about...the one...I love so much about...I can't forget. I don't know why you hate him so. I don't know. You never around us at lunch or anything so how can you say such things? What ever happened to our friendship!? What happened!? .....I-I don't understand anymore. This is silly...s-so silly...If it's not one thing it's another! Why? W-Why? Why can't you just get along with everyone? Why can't we all get along? There is just so much hate in the world! I can't even come home to peace. I can't go anywhere now where someone hates another....It's just...I guess....just maybe theres no point anymore. I have never really lost a good friend before. Is there a point in trying? Should we? Or is this...the end of us? If this it the end...then...let it be said. Let it be done if it's for the best....

 

[Horizon]

Oh yes...Forgive me! Bad, bad, bad me for thinking friend's are actually supposed to treat each other nicely and blah, blah, blah! I don't know HOW that got in my head! Silly, silly me! -slaps self repeatedly-

And, uh, I KNOW how bad my temper tantrums can be, but, really, now, I think I deserve to have them. And if I hadn't had some of them, I would have exploded in a much, much, MUCH worse way.

And excuse me for not liking to be ignored, interruped, and almost given no opinion like I don't exist. Sorry, sorry. Out of my place here. Forgot MY feelings mattered in the slightest...

And it's not silly in the slightest! The preppies treat me better than you do sometimes! My BROTHER even does a lot more than sometimes! And plus, remember what I've said already...? I'm one of those people who hide away kind of thing, so I'm not just reacting to the "silly, little thing" at just that moment; I'm exploding at anything and everything from MONTHS ago because they NEVER get resolved.

And that has to do WAY back in 10th grade I think (baaaad memory here...), before you guys were going out anyway (good enough), when we were in math class. We spent an entire period insulting each other (and I do mean an ENTIRE period) and it was all fun and games and fun, but, eventually, I got sick and tired of it. We went WAY beyond crossing the line there...) Hence why my insults got worse and my voice got REALLY irritated sounding...And now you know why! Stupid, and even I'll admit it, but meh...I haven't hung around him long enough for that grudge to go away...

And no I don't think I'm always right actually. There may be a little doubt in my head, but meh...I'm one of those people you have to give proof to thank you very muchly.

And I do those ignoring things because one: you somehow managed to hurt me (again
!), two: I'm brooding and I need my silence damn it all! And three: I'm pissed, along with hurt of course, and that's how I show it. It has NOTHING to do WHATSOEVER with ANYTHING like me thinking I'm right (unless you want to count the entire thing going on here...).

And I wonder whose fault THAT is...?

And that still gives you NO right to talk behind my back damn it!

And for your information, it's not THAT hard to change something like this. It's a small, tiny, little thing here. It's not like you need to pack up and head off to some unknown place to ponder and brood for a couple of years in a soul-searching journey you know.

And don't complain about ME being very opininated. YOU'RE just as worse, if not even more worse. Remember that time we were talking about sequels to movies...? And when you got on "The Lion King 2" and I dared tell my opinion and said I liked it...? You're reaction wasn't very, erm, GREAT either, so don't give me that bull...

And again, for your information, it's not one thing or another. It's the EXACT same thing as before! It's been the EXACT same thing from the VERY first time!

And what happened to our friendship you ask...? You mutilated it.

And hate is a part of humanity. To get rid of hate, you'd have to kill every last human you know...

And the reason WHY I'm never around at lunch and whatnot is one: it's more being ignored on my part, which doesn't help me feel any less like **** and two: I just get the impression you guys really don't want me there. I feel very, very, VERY, extremely unwelcomed in your group. And the last reason: Hungry. No money. House is close. Has food.

And for your information yet again, I HAVE been trying. For a LONG while, but, well, you have to at least meet me have way, but so far, you haven't even looked in my general direction kind of thing.

And hey, if you lost me, it's YOUR fault you know...

 

[Liliai]

ok enough talking about it i am the all mighty blue fairy and i say this fight is ended lol. This is really getting old, it is getting under all of our skins and should just be dropped. ok! no more talking about this just end it. I'm done with this! *stomps out of the room*

 

[Nightwalker]

Know what? I'm not even going to bother with you anymore. F**k you Horizon. Your not worth my time nor effort in bring back this friendship. I guess this whole time it was not even worth hanging around you. So sad isn't it? We just couldn't stay friends. You make me feel so much better about everything. So go hang around your damn brother more then and have a great time. I bet he would love to hear your obsessive stories about J-rock and whatnot. Even I'm sick of it. That's why I don't talk about it as much.

(I still love this forum though guys! )

You weren't even my friend to being with I guess. Seeing as now you said the worst things possible to me. Friend. I'm sure.

I accually felt upset last night because were fighting. Wow. I guess that's not good enough either. I didn't distory our friendship.But, think what you want. I don't care anymore...

Oh and by the way, you never wanted to talk about what was bothering you even when I asked. "No just forget about it." Well, I was willing to listen. But, whatever now. You don't have any place in my heart anymore as a friend. Sayonara. I had some good times but I guess it wasn't good enough for you.

 

[Horizon]

For f**king sake's! I've told you OVER and f**king OVER again! I have tried! It's YOU that hasn't!

And back to the last post you made before this since I forgot to post it as well: if you had cared even a FRACTION of how much you hinted at in that, then you'd be WAY more than willing to, ahem, "change" and treat me half-way correctly. And don't even use we "used to be good friends" or whatever, because we, apparently NEVER were!

And for the UMPTEENTH time (but I suppose more clearer since it ain't penetrating your skull yet)! YOU do the MEANEST things to me, so take it as revenge in the least and if it makes you feel any better. And, again, I'm not saying mean things or being mean, I'm letting it ALL the out. There's a different. THIS is a provoked attack, meaning it's not mean. "Mean" is treating people like sh*t and/or saying things to someone for NO reason WHATSOEVER!

And, erm, I don't talk about it THAT much. You've ALWAYS been worse than me here. When I would have preferred you shutting up about it, you NEVER did. And I really only talk about it on the internet now too! And besides, you talk WAY more about Blue_Flames than I EVER have of Hyde, so you definately REALLY shouldn't be talking since you've talked WAY more about two people than I have of ONE person, so just WHO is obsessive here? Huh? I can't hear you~~!

And what I was getting at before is that YOU were SUPPOSED to be my friend and, well, you never really ACTED like one, now did you? Think about it this way: how would YOU like it or feel like if Christine, Stacey, and/or Steven treated you like you treat me? Constantly ignored you? Constantly turned away and started talking to someone else RIGHT when you were in the middle of a conversation? Et cetera, et cetera? I bet you'd be pretty damn pissed too!

How much do I need to say? "It makes me feel bad when you ignore me"? "I don't like how you treat me"? "It upsets me when you interrupt me"? How much more do you need to add to THOSE? It's pretty damn blunt! The last time I said something like that because I knew you didn't give a sh*t!

And ooooooooooh! You felt UPSET! For your information, no, it ISN'T good enough! That's like some alcoholic saying he feels upset after he beats his girlfriend up in a drunken stubur! It doesn't really help much, now does it?

And again, from what I could tell, our friendship died a LONG time ago!

And YOU might have had a nice time, I wouldn't know. I was too busy being treated like I was invisible and/or didn't exist.

And you lost yours in mine a while ago. Hence this entire fight thing. And I couldn't care less. No skin of my back whatsoever.

P.S. And it's "begin with", not "being with". "Destroy", not "distroy".

P.S.S Now THAT above was me being slightly on the mean side, although, still, a provoked attack...>.>

ok enough talking about it i am the all mighty blue fairy and i say this fight is ended lol. This is really getting old, it is getting under all of our skins and should just be dropped. ok! no more talking about this just end it. I'm done with this! *stomps out of the room*

Alright, alright! I agree, I agree! No more talking about it!

Mighty blue fairy...xD Why blue though...? xD

 

[Liliai]

Blue fairy like from AI: Artifical Inteligence. Blue Fairy lol. You know (so not spelt right sorry)

 

[Liliai]

We already know about the whole spelling thing hun..lol

 

[Horizon]

Hehe...xD

And you spelled intelligence ALMOST right! xDD

And I see, I see. <---Has never seen that movie.

 

[Liliai]

Really almost lol? Really never?

 

[Horizon]

Really almost and really never! xDD

 

[Liliai]

Grrr! *Shoots self* Class...so...boring....*dies*

 

[Horizon]

I know, I know! And the teacher just makes it worse...-pat, pat- Don't worry! We'll get through it! Although we MUST ran away if we EVER get this guy again!

 

[Nightwalker]

And besides, you talk WAY more about Blue_Flames than I EVER have of Hyde, so you definately REALLY shouldn't be talking since you've talked WAY more about two people than I have of ONE person, so just WHO is obsessive here? Huh? I can't hear you~~!

Hahahaha! Hello I'm dating him and I know him also.

Think about it this way: how would YOU like it or feel like if Christine, Stacey, and/or Steven treated you like you treat me? Constantly ignored you? Constantly turned away and started talking to someone else RIGHT when you were in the middle of a conversation? Et cetera, et cetera? I bet you'd be pretty damn pissed too!

First off: They wouldn't.
Second: I wouldn't care I would wait till I could talk again.
Third: I told you before I can't give you 100% attention all the time. There are other people around me. God, you like crave for attention don't you.

It doens't make me feel better by the way you must be thinking of someone else. I did consider you a friend. If you say there was nothing there I guess I was the one mistaken about caring about you. What a fool I am.

Nothing is ever good for you.

So, I guess I was nothing to you. You I guess were nothing to me. It was useless. This entire time was all a dream. More a nightmare now. Seeing as you said our friendship ended a long time ago. How come I didn't think that? You can't accept the way I am. Fine. I don't need a friend like that. You weren't a friend at all because friends don't say to other friends "My brother and his preppie friends are nicer to me." BULL! Ya, I spit on you and order you around. Oh yes! Be my f**king slave! I never treated you like that! Ever! My mother even said if you wanted a place to go you could come and live with me if things got bad at home. Yes! I was such a bad friend to you. I felt bad the way your father and brother treated you. I was such a bad friend to have you over to my house like almost everyday. Ya, I guess I was a bad friend. Seeing how I was like the only real person who ever cared about you. That wasn't enough. So I'm not longer going to have a friend who says stuff and treats me like I was never good to her! Thanks so much Melissa! THANKS A LOT!

You are no longer a part of my life...There's no point in being my friend after this. Because even if we were to be friends again. I would never be good enough for you. You would still think I ignore you. Well, I have nothing else to say. Can't you get over that? Like come on. I was your best friend and I was so good to you. I had you over at my house all the time and my parents loved you and yet this is how it ends? I don't understand that. Guess it don't matter. Were not friends anymore so why bother. Why bother.

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

*is lost*... umm back on topic shall we.

The Illuminati live performance... is tasty.

 

[Nightwalker]

I like this one part in Gackt MARS Tour DVD when his is singing a song he kinda turns his head and looks up as if something kinda popped out of no where. It's kawaii.

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

Ohhh grapes! XD

I love a man in uniform XD *licks Gackt*

 

[Nightwalker]

O_,O Oh my...

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

hehe... I like when Gackt humps random band members on stage too. Have you seen that commercial where Gackt's like "Watashi wa Mr. Perfecto..." (or something like that) and he's examining his flawless skin with a magnifying glass... haha too funny