Most memorable J-rocker moment!

pinkkillerkisou said:
No, no, no, no, no, no, no! Take it from a former cutter... it was never for enjoyment. It was because I thought it was the only way I could relieve the pain I felt inside... it was the only thing that gave me peace. Please don't ever do that. Because once you start it's so hard to stop. Eventually it doesn't make you feel better and you ask yourslef why you still do it and you have no reason to... but you can't stop. You feel completely hollow. It's so much worse then anything you could possibly be feeling.

I'd rather feel hollow and empty than how I do right now...

Yea your right XD

Yesh! Down with the revelance! :p
 
No you most definitely don't... there is no point in living if you can't feel anything... nothing brings you happiness... you shut yourself in you room and try to cry but you have no more tears because you wasted them on little things and you cut just to cut... because you have no more reasons to because you shut yourself out from the world... that right there is worse then death... and what's even worse is having people who cared about you and pushed them away because you were ashamed and thought they couldn't understand. There is no way you could possibly want to live like this.

Ohh... no wait... you can't leave... You'll never know the Truth! *sighs*
 
I see I see. Well, only the odd time that conversation would come up. "M" as a joke or something like that. I don't share it with others. My conversations have change in the last while. Like I don't talk about Gackt nor J-rock as much anymore. I don't listen to it a lot that much. It's not because I hate it but I just don't think about it as much. Gackt. Well, I still like him very much as an artist but theres nothing I can talk about him anymore. I have someone right now I would rather talk about all the time. Even think about. *sigh* Ya. I still am very bothered with everything. Upset as you are more than likely.
 
pinkkillerkisou said:
No you most definitely don't... there is no point in living if you can't feel anything... nothing brings you happiness... you shut yourself in you room and try to cry but you have no more tears because you wasted them on little things and you cut just to cut... because you have no more reasons to because you shut yourself out from the world... that right there is worse then death... and what's even worse is having people who cared about you and pushed them away because you were ashamed and thought they couldn't understand. There is no way you could possibly want to live like this.

Ohh... no wait... you can't leave... You'll never know the Truth! *sighs*

Meh...At least I wouldn't be constantly hurt...

Nightwalker said:
I see I see. Well, only the odd time that conversation would come up. "M" as a joke or something like that. I don't share it with others. My conversations have change in the last while. Like I don't talk about Gackt nor J-rock as much anymore. I don't listen to it a lot that much. It's not because I hate it but I just don't think about it as much. Gackt. Well, I still like him very much as an artist but theres nothing I can talk about him anymore. I have someone right now I would rather talk about all the time. Even think about. *sigh* Ya. I still am very bothered with everything. Upset as you are more than likely.

Yeah, I noticed. Or at least about the Gackt stuff anyway...And the talk about someone and think about someone all the time thing too.

And sorry. I don't mean to be such a damn bother or whatever, but it just gets too much, ne...? :sorry: I try to hold it in and everything, but, well, stupid/corny comparison here, but it's kind of like a volcano, ne? The more and more pressure builds up, the more and more chance of an eruption kind of thing.

But, seriously, what did you mean in that last sentence...? -clueless and beyond curious here-
 
But still... I wouldn't even wish that feeling on someone I hate. Please don't... you said yourself... "at least one person cares" ...make that your reason not to... because the alternative to carrying these burdens is no life and is just as bad as death... even worse.
 
Then maybe I should just kill myself then...?

But so far, so good. I haven't done it yet and I really don't plan to either. I really don't want to mutilate myself, especially since, knowing my luck, I'd get caught and get in some deep, deep doo-doo...
 
No.... that's not what I meant. (really needs to learn to speak better English)

You better not... or you'll get a beating from me. *give you intimidating look*
 
I know, I know. Don't worry! xD

Meep, meep! -backs awway into a corner, giving you one of those "don't hurt me, don't hurt me" looks-

Then, erm, I'll...I'll, err...I'll sick my rat on you! Yeah! He likes pissing all over people (or at least on me...>.>...)!
 
Hey...It smells REALLY bad once you get enough of it you know...>.> Don't insult the power of my quivering, shivering, scared, little Roo! xD
 
I don't think I could be more clear. Do not underestimate the power of my rat, Roo's, piss. xD
 
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.........dum de dum dum dum...........
i had my pet rat pee all over my Geometry teachers desk.....it was funni.


*random*
 
Baka Eki said:
.........dum de dum dum dum...........
i had my pet rat pee all over my Geometry teachers desk.....it was funni.


*random*

It wasn't really random since we're talking about rat piss, but meh..xD

And what's your rats name? xD

pinkkillerkisou said:
Umm... but I said Why did you think I was insulting your rat? ☝

Basically, one: I was kidding and two: I was saying don't underestimate the power of his piss. He's male and he's not castrated. xD
 
Horizon: What I meant is I'm still upset about the fight. I won't forget it that's for sure. It shouldn't bother me all that much but just that you called my boyfriend stupid and said that I only care about me and him. It's true that I care about him more than anything but I do care about my friends as well. My Ma says that boyfriends do come first because they have something special that friends really don't have. Such as a caring love differently from friends. Hard to explain. The other thing was that your probably upset as well that we fought as much as I am. Still a bit mad about everything but I may get there where I am not. As I said still sour bout things.
 
Yeah really Horizon, please don't kill yourself over something so small, I know you have a rough life and all but nothing is solved by that. You would hurt me by doing that you might not think I care but I do, I might be mad now it's because I can't people saying things about my friends and me thats all. Thanks you for bringing the dvd's and manga back. Are you really not going to first? Why just because me and Nightwalker are in there. You shouldn't miss class if you don't wan to be near us then more somewhere else don't not go to class. SOrry for poutting words in your mouth but I do swear that once you said you did like her, not as much as I did but you did didn't you? I can't think of anything right now because i am at my friends house and yeah not wanting to be all grr here. And to Pinkkiller we are not ganging up on her we are talking ok. Since we don't do it at school and all.
 
Ya. I do agree with you there about things. I don't really know what to say. Ya killing yourself never really solves anything. Or even that hurting yourself. I am ashamed of myself for thinking at times of this like that. Liliai knows the story.
 
Well I guess i need to say sorry too...........
I'm still not your freind but i shouldn't have say some if those things. I was mad that you were mad at Nightwalker and you called me stupid, I'm over it. And please don't kill yourself, I'd feel like most of this is my felt.
I'd kill my self in guilt.
Then nightwalker would follow(you better not)
Then Liliai
and so on...

So let all just move on, I won't talk to you but I won't get all evil around you. And I hope you and Nightwalker can work thing out, even with what I said before you two were to good of friends to stop being now. I hope thing work out. And thanx Pinkkillerkisou for helping all of us out. 👍
 
Liliai said:
Yeah really Horizon, please don't kill yourself over something so small, I know you have a rough life and all but nothing is solved by that. You would hurt me by doing that you might not think I care but I do, I might be mad now it's because I can't people saying things about my friends and me thats all. Thanks you for bringing the dvd's and manga back. Are you really not going to first? Why just because me and Nightwalker are in there. You shouldn't miss class if you don't wan to be near us then more somewhere else don't not go to class. SOrry for poutting words in your mouth but I do swear that once you said you did like her, not as much as I did but you did didn't you? I can't think of anything right now because i am at my friends house and yeah not wanting to be all grr here. And to Pinkkiller we are not ganging up on her we are talking ok. Since we don't do it at school and all.

Well, it would solve a lot of crap for me...Not that I would. I'd need some more serious motivation before I even come close to thinking of doing that. I was kind of half-joking.

And it's not a small thing goddamnit! I hate it when everyone says everything is "small", because, even though it may be for you, it's not for me!

Oh right...First period...xDDD I forgot about that! xDD

And sorry for putting words in yours too. I didn't mean to...

And yes, that's right, but I said not in a romantic way sort of thing...

And the reason I never talk to any of you during school when I'm pissed, is, well, 'cause I'm pissed and I know you'd all gang-bang me anyway...Seems like you guys always make me out as the criminal here...

And heh...Thanks... :eek:
Nightwalker said:
Ya. I do agree with you there about things. I don't really know what to say. Ya killing yourself never really solves anything. Or even that hurting yourself. I am ashamed of myself for thinking at times of this like that. Liliai knows the story.

Again, it does for the person who killed themselves, but meh...

Blue Flames said:
Well I guess i need to say sorry too...........
I'm still not your freind but i shouldn't have say some if those things. I was mad that you were mad at Nightwalker and you called me stupid, I'm over it. And please don't kill yourself, I'd feel like most of this is my felt.
I'd kill my self in guilt.
Then nightwalker would follow(you better not)
Then Liliai
and so on...

So let all just move on, I won't talk to you but I won't get all evil around you. And I hope you and Nightwalker can work thing out, even with what I said before you two were to good of friends to stop being now. I hope thing work out. And thanx Pinkkillerkisou for helping all of us out. 👍
We never were friends there, brilliant one...Or at least not after that insulting-fess we had in math class...

And if I ever did kill myself and you did it then I'd have to kill you.

And don't make me laugh...
 
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