MajideSaiaku
tsuyaku o tsukete kudasai
- 19 Jan 2005
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My girlfriend (who is japanese and currently in japan) hasnt been really the same since she went home in the middle of september after spending the summer with me, and its gotten to the stage where its hard to feel any lvoe from her if any at all...we've had a fight recently and basically i dont know whats going on....she said she had a date with a boy but it isnt the first time she's played this tactic, and she's always come ronud but im really worrying now...
Today i waited for her on MSN for many hours but she didnt arrive until very late and then told me, and she was acting with an unfortunately familiar attitude which conveys little feeling one expects from a partner and more of a general attitude that can only be best described as *****.
Though i wouldnt say she was being one, since i love her and i know what she is like when she was with me, i just cant believe this is the same person, we;ve been together a good few years now and lately she's just been acting as if she hasnt been in lvoe with me and been my girlfriend for such years.
She hasnt said break-up this time but, it feels like noe, i really dont know where i stand, all i know is my girlfriend isnt acting normally and not very lovey to me and i feel so lost and confused and like im going to go insane...
i thought it could be just being apart making her a little fed up but, this behaviour goes beyond a little fed up and its literally a mere matter of weeks before we meet up again U_U.
This just isnt the same woman i've known and loved, i keep wondering where my girlfriend is, part of me hopes this is merely an imposter stolen her MSN and stuff, but on webcam its her face, her voice, memories, i know its her U_U
I need help, i need someone, anyone to help me come to terms with this....ive heard or rocky relationships but this just takes the piss, it feels so one-sided and all i get from her is apathy at the best and worst, being mean, but she always makes up and....i dunno, if i hadnt got to know the real her who i fell in lvoe with and who loved me back, i would have been long gone from this wreck by now but....i just cant let myself believe she's suddenly changed....from the girl crying and saying goodbye to me at the airport, who i could feel she loved me just by being near her, to this girl who acts like a.....*****.....and i hatre saying that because when you've known someone so long and known them as a generally kind caring loving girlfriend, and loved them back, its so impossible to accept that this new attitude is really them.
Ive tried to press this before but, ultimately i never get to any real cause, i never seem to make a breakthrough and find my girlfriend under all this BS of late U_U.
I guess this is a bit of a rant aswell as a call for help and advice....i dont feel proud of spilling out my relation troubles here but....i need to tal kto someone, and its easier to talk to, if you will forgive, faceless voiceless anonymous members of a friendly forum i frequent rather then some "proffessional" or my mates, who dont have girlfriends and dont want one.
-_-
Today i waited for her on MSN for many hours but she didnt arrive until very late and then told me, and she was acting with an unfortunately familiar attitude which conveys little feeling one expects from a partner and more of a general attitude that can only be best described as *****.
Though i wouldnt say she was being one, since i love her and i know what she is like when she was with me, i just cant believe this is the same person, we;ve been together a good few years now and lately she's just been acting as if she hasnt been in lvoe with me and been my girlfriend for such years.
She hasnt said break-up this time but, it feels like noe, i really dont know where i stand, all i know is my girlfriend isnt acting normally and not very lovey to me and i feel so lost and confused and like im going to go insane...
i thought it could be just being apart making her a little fed up but, this behaviour goes beyond a little fed up and its literally a mere matter of weeks before we meet up again U_U.
This just isnt the same woman i've known and loved, i keep wondering where my girlfriend is, part of me hopes this is merely an imposter stolen her MSN and stuff, but on webcam its her face, her voice, memories, i know its her U_U
I need help, i need someone, anyone to help me come to terms with this....ive heard or rocky relationships but this just takes the piss, it feels so one-sided and all i get from her is apathy at the best and worst, being mean, but she always makes up and....i dunno, if i hadnt got to know the real her who i fell in lvoe with and who loved me back, i would have been long gone from this wreck by now but....i just cant let myself believe she's suddenly changed....from the girl crying and saying goodbye to me at the airport, who i could feel she loved me just by being near her, to this girl who acts like a.....*****.....and i hatre saying that because when you've known someone so long and known them as a generally kind caring loving girlfriend, and loved them back, its so impossible to accept that this new attitude is really them.
Ive tried to press this before but, ultimately i never get to any real cause, i never seem to make a breakthrough and find my girlfriend under all this BS of late U_U.
I guess this is a bit of a rant aswell as a call for help and advice....i dont feel proud of spilling out my relation troubles here but....i need to tal kto someone, and its easier to talk to, if you will forgive, faceless voiceless anonymous members of a friendly forum i frequent rather then some "proffessional" or my mates, who dont have girlfriends and dont want one.
-_-