The-Beautiful-Roses
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- 3 Dec 2005
- 259
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*First of all, to classify my likings and so you get a vague picture of what these guys look like, Ive always fallen for the jocky wiggers. Very odd to say that, its just my taste.*
Back in november I met a guy. Ill just say his name is Blue. (his favorite color)
We met in an arcade and I guess hit it off right away. We were out with a group of friends cause a close friend of mine -ill just call her diva- decided to have a vast group of friends over. Her boyfriend (at the time) was friends with Blue and they decided to invite blue along also. Everyone ate, Blue enchanted me with his charm and we headed back to Divas house.
Was it coincidence?โ It was Blues first time to see divas boyfriend for years and both our first time at miss. divas house. We watched a movie and such. I cuddled with Blue, but in utter shyness (sp?) resisted making out with him or anything beyond holding hands and tickling. Occasionally he would try touching me, or getting me to kiss him but at the time I was shy as anything. I didn't ever french kiss EVER.
After that night we talked on the phone a lot-- only three months later to see eachother again for my highschool winter formal dance.
That was when it happened. That night Diva, her boyfriend, blue, joseph, and I went out with some friends to eat din din. Well afterword they (as in the friends) headed to the dance and we(as in diva, her bf, joseph, blue, and I) headed to divas bfs house. It was my first time to get high(blues stuff).. and my first time to really kiss.
We went to the dance an hour after it started and when we got there, the ones we ate dinner with were entirely FRUSTRATED with our stupid decision to put our reputations on the line by smoking pot. Oh well.
So anyways we kept talking on the phone and blue would occasionally come down from where he lived (about an hour away) to come and make out, get high, and have fun.
Its not as bad as it probably sounds. REALLY its not bad. After a while blue would tell me he's coming down, id spend hours getting ready, and then wait only to be dissapointed for not only wasting my day but for him not to call and tell me he couldn't hang out. Weekends and weekends later I broke up with him. Yes of course I cried and to that effect my dramatic self complained to the all mighty friends of DRAMA.
Months later of not talking to Blue-- him and his friend IAN who ive talked to on the phone came down to divas-ex's-birthday-keg-party-thing. I didn't go cause I forgot. I was too busy painting a picture for this guy named .. uhm.. ill just call him bob. I grew up with bob and occasionally go to his house at night to talk and stuff. I have to confess I made out with bob after I broke up with blue. :joyful: I don't think its wrong cause I wasn't with blue anymore(we didn't talk much anymore anyway) and bob wasn't with anyone at the moment.
Well so anyways blue came down, I got a call this past saturday morning by ian from divas-exs cell phone and got so excited I could've creamed my pants.
Ha ha, yeah so I got all ready. Of course that night I had to go to one of my friends parties so I couldn't spend all day and night with ian, blue, and divas ex. Well to sum it up, them and other people (joseph, sammie, tiffany, matt, adam) got drunk and blue lost the keys to ians car. They said they couldn't pick me up and Ill just say after blue stomping on my heart all that time I wasn't about to give up. Ian proposed that i should ask my ma to drop me off so later i did, she dropped me off.
When I arrived I didn't recognize ian cause ive only met him online and well divas ex was busy talking, sooo I went down to the basement in his room, looked around and decided to get on his bed and watch whatever movie they had on. I was dissapointed cause I didn't recognize ian and didn't see marc anywhere. When I sat on the bed I looked down to jasons puffy blanket and shunned away the possibility there could be anyone there. I decided to get more comfortable, so i tried grabbing two pillows from behind me. Those pillows were heavy as ****, so after seconds of pulling I look to figure out what was wrong and there goes blue turning his head from under the covers.
He had sharpie all over his face, and he looked so cute.
So the guys (i was the only girl there at the time) decided to go and look for ians keys so we could all go off and get high. Blue went to go wipe the sharpie off his face and I stayed on the bed. I later got bored cause montey python and the holy grail has long as credits at the beginning so I go outside ONLY TO SEE sammie, matt, and tiffany!! It was my first time meeting tiffany so I got excited. Well I flirted with divas ex for a little bit cause blue was an *** and I wanted to stay away from him for a while. Blue found the keys, and so we were to figure out where to go next. The guys wanted to go eat subway of course. They aren't fat asses cause they work out, but THEY EAT SO MUCH!! There were too many of us to fit in one car so I go with sammie, matt, and tiffany in sammies car.
-*-*-*-feels the need to breathe-*-*-*-
Okay so we end up having to bring tiffany somewhere, but I have no clue. I try dancing to the metal music to brighten the mood, but couldn't help notice tiffany had something wrong with her. We arrive at a house, and she sends matt in to see if some guy was acting normal. I ask her whats wrong and she says she cheated on her boyfriend. (this girl named mary used to go out with this abusive guy and broke up with him after he kirked out and held a knife to her throat) She asked me if I was still dating blue and if blue was a manwhore. I didn't know what to say because previous to my breaking up with blue, I wondered that myself.
I told her we had long broken up. She then told me she made out with him. For a split second, i felt my heart stop. I decided to talk to her because i felt her feeling better was more important than my confuzzlednuss. She then left and sammie explained all they did was make out. She then explained tiffany was somewhat a ****. She went out with matt, who was inside FOR HER... and while they were going out, she cheated on him by having sex with ty.
After hearing her say she made out with marc I was relieved. I always thought he was some sort of playa, but felt bad for even thinking asking him something I had no right to even consider. I felt relieved for the simple fact that I could think blue and I as friends without any ties or awkward desires. Would you think it better... loving someone just to love, or loving someone because they make you feel good?
Sure blue is a playa but for some reason I kind of like him a little better now. I hate being clingy and felt I needed to give marc my all. Now I feel its easy come easy go. Coming to get high, have fun, maybe even go further than making out... but just to feel good. A new love for connection between two souls to make eachother happy and escape the world for a few days. We can leave eachother and not have to call, or feel tied down. You have someone and not at the same time. Its like a good dream. Occasionally you have one and its so amazing you don't want to wake up. Eventually you have to and till the next one comes, you're left with memories that give you chills just thinking about it.
Tell me your opinion of the situation. What kind of love is better for you?
I don't really feel the need to explain what else happened that night. Tee hee.
Back in november I met a guy. Ill just say his name is Blue. (his favorite color)
We met in an arcade and I guess hit it off right away. We were out with a group of friends cause a close friend of mine -ill just call her diva- decided to have a vast group of friends over. Her boyfriend (at the time) was friends with Blue and they decided to invite blue along also. Everyone ate, Blue enchanted me with his charm and we headed back to Divas house.Was it coincidence?โ It was Blues first time to see divas boyfriend for years and both our first time at miss. divas house. We watched a movie and such. I cuddled with Blue, but in utter shyness (sp?) resisted making out with him or anything beyond holding hands and tickling. Occasionally he would try touching me, or getting me to kiss him but at the time I was shy as anything. I didn't ever french kiss EVER.
After that night we talked on the phone a lot-- only three months later to see eachother again for my highschool winter formal dance.
That was when it happened. That night Diva, her boyfriend, blue, joseph, and I went out with some friends to eat din din. Well afterword they (as in the friends) headed to the dance and we(as in diva, her bf, joseph, blue, and I) headed to divas bfs house. It was my first time to get high(blues stuff).. and my first time to really kiss. We went to the dance an hour after it started and when we got there, the ones we ate dinner with were entirely FRUSTRATED with our stupid decision to put our reputations on the line by smoking pot. Oh well.So anyways we kept talking on the phone and blue would occasionally come down from where he lived (about an hour away) to come and make out, get high, and have fun.
Its not as bad as it probably sounds. REALLY its not bad. After a while blue would tell me he's coming down, id spend hours getting ready, and then wait only to be dissapointed for not only wasting my day but for him not to call and tell me he couldn't hang out. Weekends and weekends later I broke up with him. Yes of course I cried and to that effect my dramatic self complained to the all mighty friends of DRAMA.Months later of not talking to Blue-- him and his friend IAN who ive talked to on the phone came down to divas-ex's-birthday-keg-party-thing. I didn't go cause I forgot. I was too busy painting a picture for this guy named .. uhm.. ill just call him bob. I grew up with bob and occasionally go to his house at night to talk and stuff. I have to confess I made out with bob after I broke up with blue. :joyful: I don't think its wrong cause I wasn't with blue anymore(we didn't talk much anymore anyway) and bob wasn't with anyone at the moment.
Well so anyways blue came down, I got a call this past saturday morning by ian from divas-exs cell phone and got so excited I could've creamed my pants.
Ha ha, yeah so I got all ready. Of course that night I had to go to one of my friends parties so I couldn't spend all day and night with ian, blue, and divas ex. Well to sum it up, them and other people (joseph, sammie, tiffany, matt, adam) got drunk and blue lost the keys to ians car. They said they couldn't pick me up and Ill just say after blue stomping on my heart all that time I wasn't about to give up. Ian proposed that i should ask my ma to drop me off so later i did, she dropped me off. When I arrived I didn't recognize ian cause ive only met him online and well divas ex was busy talking, sooo I went down to the basement in his room, looked around and decided to get on his bed and watch whatever movie they had on. I was dissapointed cause I didn't recognize ian and didn't see marc anywhere. When I sat on the bed I looked down to jasons puffy blanket and shunned away the possibility there could be anyone there. I decided to get more comfortable, so i tried grabbing two pillows from behind me. Those pillows were heavy as ****, so after seconds of pulling I look to figure out what was wrong and there goes blue turning his head from under the covers.
He had sharpie all over his face, and he looked so cute. So the guys (i was the only girl there at the time) decided to go and look for ians keys so we could all go off and get high. Blue went to go wipe the sharpie off his face and I stayed on the bed. I later got bored cause montey python and the holy grail has long as credits at the beginning so I go outside ONLY TO SEE sammie, matt, and tiffany!! It was my first time meeting tiffany so I got excited. Well I flirted with divas ex for a little bit cause blue was an *** and I wanted to stay away from him for a while. Blue found the keys, and so we were to figure out where to go next. The guys wanted to go eat subway of course. They aren't fat asses cause they work out, but THEY EAT SO MUCH!! There were too many of us to fit in one car so I go with sammie, matt, and tiffany in sammies car.
-*-*-*-feels the need to breathe-*-*-*-
Okay so we end up having to bring tiffany somewhere, but I have no clue. I try dancing to the metal music to brighten the mood, but couldn't help notice tiffany had something wrong with her. We arrive at a house, and she sends matt in to see if some guy was acting normal. I ask her whats wrong and she says she cheated on her boyfriend. (this girl named mary used to go out with this abusive guy and broke up with him after he kirked out and held a knife to her throat) She asked me if I was still dating blue and if blue was a manwhore. I didn't know what to say because previous to my breaking up with blue, I wondered that myself.
I told her we had long broken up. She then told me she made out with him. For a split second, i felt my heart stop. I decided to talk to her because i felt her feeling better was more important than my confuzzlednuss. She then left and sammie explained all they did was make out. She then explained tiffany was somewhat a ****. She went out with matt, who was inside FOR HER... and while they were going out, she cheated on him by having sex with ty.
After hearing her say she made out with marc I was relieved. I always thought he was some sort of playa, but felt bad for even thinking asking him something I had no right to even consider. I felt relieved for the simple fact that I could think blue and I as friends without any ties or awkward desires. Would you think it better... loving someone just to love, or loving someone because they make you feel good?
Sure blue is a playa but for some reason I kind of like him a little better now. I hate being clingy and felt I needed to give marc my all. Now I feel its easy come easy go. Coming to get high, have fun, maybe even go further than making out... but just to feel good. A new love for connection between two souls to make eachother happy and escape the world for a few days. We can leave eachother and not have to call, or feel tied down. You have someone and not at the same time. Its like a good dream. Occasionally you have one and its so amazing you don't want to wake up. Eventually you have to and till the next one comes, you're left with memories that give you chills just thinking about it.
Tell me your opinion of the situation. What kind of love is better for you?
I don't really feel the need to explain what else happened that night. Tee hee.
times when he makes me sad to but at the end of the day I feel he is my soul mate, my lover, my friend and I love him to bits and yes it makes me feel good 
