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This is a tough one, Kirei. I had to blink for about 24 hours to find myself comfortable with the idea. In fact I ache to make a visit pretty soon 'cause I didn't get any in the past 48 hours or so.kirei_na_me said:
a) I don't like small ones. Tough to get into, and so easy to fall off.
b) Yes I agree. Having one with the right size does make it more enjoyable though I try not to let it bother me too much.
c) Well, when I'm really desperate, what do I care about size ? I know my body, and size isn't a real problem at all because I can adjust. As long as I can slip into one and get all cozy for the night, I can sleep on most anything. But to be honest, I'd prefer a queen size all to myself. That way I get enough ground to roll over, and it's still small enough to get up in one big move. Twins are too small; and kings too big !
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Interesting comment about Freud. I am sure he would have had something to say esp. regarding the dynamics of the superego repressing the libido that finds itself out at night or while writing uninhibited on the forum which acts as the friendly magical mirror that speaks to you if you will.Tsuyoiko said:
Forgetfulness is supposed to be intentional -- at least reflecting a notable conflict between a strong urge and an equally strong need to silence it. What could that be ? In conjunction to the three options you initially provided, Freud might have offered the following.
a) You fantisise about doing it incognito; what great humour ! The thin boundary between secrecy and exposure, the civilised facade and unveiled savagery, is causing you to wonder about and perhaps ridicule what ultimately seems to be hypocricy. What a teasing idea for you it is to play a joke on the third person !
b) And then your fleeting imagination moves on to a moment of exposure ! O, what embarassment ! But you further feign to be unperturbed ! As if you can pull it off and succeed in convincing yourself of your sincerity. How great is the satisfaction of being the stronger one, Tsuyoiko ! To be that confident of one's life's moment would be the ultimate, positive affirmation of one's existence.
c) But then your flying dream compels you to suck in the observer into your maelstrom of libidinal eruption by sheer strength of your life force, aka irresistable, primal, abysmal, sexual, vital attractaction, almost comparable to the concentrated hand-wind of the zen-toughened samurai . At this point, the distinction between life and death would disappear, as do the thin wall between the civilised and the savage.
d) After a night of sleep, or that of frenzied sexual feast what have you, you realise that your post has conveniently substituted what your dream was supposed to do originally. Your famished desire has been symbolically or surreally fulfilled, and your dream tells you that it doesn't bother you any more. In other words, you had a good night's rest due to the fact. The fatasising you might have had since some time ago is realised symbolically (really is verbally), and the tension that went along with it is gone. You are releaved, cured ! But the reason you missed the No option was that No was not an option you were fantasising about.
Okay, Tsuyoiko, that's all for today. I believe that dream will not bother you any more, but if anything interesting comes up, give me a ring for another session should you so desire.
Your friendly Dr Shrink
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