I'm very thankful for all the attention I am getting with this topic...thank you.
Ultimately, I really do want to become fluent in Japanese, and I know that takes a lot of time...and having only just become a third year part 2 student of the language I know I'm not to expect too much.
But when I was in Japan I just, well let me try to explain this as best I can.
(For anyone who uses the Japanese: The Spoken Language by Jorden and Noda this might make more sense)
I know about common / direct form, and I understand them, and I know how to grammatically use them. But when I was in Japan, people (mostly teens/ young adults since that's my age group) spoke really direct, and really fast with it. And sometimes I could catch words I knew and recognized, but I would be so, I dunno, caught up in listening that I would only think about what I could hear and not make much sense out of the rest of the sentence? Does that make any sense to you?
In class we're always given situations of being co-workers or talking to a teacher, so I'm always hearing and using distal and honorific forms. That is just how the class is structured since it's better to be more polite to someone Japan than rude.
On top of that, ever since I started learning Japanese in college, we've just gone through the Jordan/Noda series and memorized the example conversations. I understand this is helpful, and I know it's to make grammar clear-er, but when I am not saying something that is similar to one of these memorized conversations, I can't help but just think and doubt myself as to if what I just said was coherent. And if I say something and the reply isn't similar to what was memorized, then I wonder if what I think the translation is, is really correct either.
This probably makes no sense, it's just a little frustrating trying to explain my problem when I've been doing what the sensei and course plan say to and I can't help but feel I can't really speak the language.