Hey FullM3taL, I hope things will get better on your end.
Actually, I had a bit of a problem myself. After I learned that I passed the first screening, my professor asked if I should start reading some academic books. He gave me a reading list. So I started buying books as early as last month and I had to write a reaction paper for every chapter of the book. I had a bit of hesitation at first, because I still don't know if I will be able to go to Japan. I just didn't want to do the whole nine yards and just be useless in the end. But now, I've decided that, whether or I pass or not, whatever knowledge I get from the books I've been reading would be something beneficial for me. So then I stopped worrying and got my highlighter pens. Next month, my professor and I will see each other (he will be visiting my country). We will already talk about how I should prepare for the move. I am still a bit scared of doing all the preparations, but I'm just going with the flow. If things don't turn okay, I guess I would be better prepared the next time hehe. What do you guys think of this? Let me know your thoughts.