Miyavi

[Jou Sama]

He said in his journal from September 19th (I'm paraphrasing) that maybe one day he will come to love himself and maybe even another.
I don't personally feel like going to find a link, so if someone else would like to do so.

He's definately not his cheery self lately, looking at pictures you can tell that. There's quite a few shots from his 5 day concert of him smiling, however you can see it in his eyes that he's not happy.

He is human after all, he's going to get sad from time to time.

I say lets be optimistic that this care package we're sending him cheers him up, along with this break he's been on. Lord knows if I start doubting this project I'll never finish it... TToTT


Miki, I never got your IM lastnight ;o;! It didn't even say you were online!! Dani said she didn't get your IM either =(
*kicks MSN*

 

[MiaCarlax]

Msn was being really gay last night
I thought for about 2 hours everyone was annoying me!
But it all came at once saying none of it was delivered
I threw a hissy fit and turned it off ¬___¬

But tbh, thats exactly round about what he said. But to be fair, not many people love themselves. Just cause they dont, doesnt make him unhappy as such. He might just be worn out and stuff. Maybe the christmas holidays will cheer him up

As for my favourite songs
hmmm

Jibun kakumei
Dear my friend
Kimi ni negai wo
and itoshi hito the acoustic version!


I found
the best site in the world.. *COUGH* Xanga 2.0 is Here! *COUGH*

:|


^_____^

 

[FreakyD]

ah yeah jibun kakumei rocks my socks hrhrhr

and your ava rocks, mia *stares* reita ﾂ≫?ｹQﾂ≫?ｹ

 

[Amaya]

I never though about that, he dont love his self!!.. I hope he cheer up soon!!

@MiaCarlax: Tnxx For the site..!! I see it before.. i dont no when *Kicks herself*
I love dear my friend too..!! But i love Baka na Hito more... I can't get enough of that song!!.. and jingle bell.. i have a christmas feeling a ready!!

Ahh.. i been here for *Thinks realy hard* two hole weaks ore someting.. Have been reading al de paged that i've didn't posted..!! Man,, that took a lot of time LOL!~

BTW.. I heard a song called papamama.. Ore something?! Does some one have that song..?? I can't find it anywhere.

 

[Harinezumi]

MiaCarlax, THANKS for the site!!! I hope you're job interwiew will be find ^_^.
I'm happy that everybody give names of beautiful songs cause I don't know a lot of them, now I know what I've to search.
And, maybe it's noraml that mYV doesn't love himself, everybody got times like that. Maybe japanese work too much, even if they're Jrocker. Hope he will take some rest and will be find after.

 

[Jou Sama]

But tbh, thats exactly round about what he said. But to be fair, not many people love themselves. Just cause they dont, doesnt make him unhappy as such. He might just be worn out and stuff. Maybe the christmas holidays will cheer him up

I guess... but still, shouldn't a person love and respect themselves? Isn't that a message he puts through in his songs???
Maybe it's just me because I have no self esteem, but I can't see a non-self loving person as "happy" Sure overall in a sense I am. I'm content at the moment with my life. I have my Angels that I look out for and I know they're looking out for me. I want a career in music, that I know. Now it's just a matter up stepping up to the plate and getting there.
However, "at the moment" is the key phrase. Trying to look past all my insecurities is difficult. I talked with a few of my friends and asked if over the years they'd like to make a band (We live across the US, so to have a current "official" band is out of the question XD). I've been appointed "leader" and honestly I fear it. I don't want my doubts to get in the way of the band.
I'm a lot better than I was not even half a year ago, I almost feel "free" if you will. In the past my self loathing really did cause issues. I think it's a main reason I didn't bother in school. I figured 'Even if I tried and paid attention, I'm just an idiot. I won't do any better than I am now.' I never bothered trying new things, cause I thought I'd suck at it anyway. I've only recently started hitting myself saying "AT LEAST TRY IT!" I know my insecurities are still there though. I've just gotten good at suppressing them.
I think everyone reaches a point in their life and/or career when they lose track of perspective. They don't know what's going on in their life and where they're headed. I believe they slip into a sort of depression at that time. I also believe this could be something Miyavi is going through.

And that is a really long ramble... I'm sorry for making you read all that crap v.v

 

[miki78]

Hmmm actully not loveing yourself is a very serious thing low self esteeme can be crippling perticuly in a job like Meevs is doing where all eyes are on him

To be honest i'm not suprised Meevs is depressed highly strung people oftain are people who ae jolly and friendly happy goofy and wacky all the time people don't understand when there sad but the truith is that type of behaviour is oftain the front for a sadness the person is trying to cover up

The lyrics to GigPig boogie just remind me of being sacastic in that sence

Remeber we all read Meevs lyrics the depth and earnest of those lyrics show that his soul is far from that of a clown to write those types of lyrics he must exspriance or witness pain none of us know about remeber we know nothing about his childhood or what kind of life he has had

All i know is that Meevs has eyes that bloom in tears and that makes me worry about him

MSN i tried again last night but nobody answered me so got depressed and wen a bed XD XD

It off at the mo my internet just keeps switching off *sigh*

coloured pixals yea some stuff on that site is good but not much you would be better off with JDorama

 

[miki78]

grr don't put yourself down Jou that is what life is about to fight i know what it is like to have bad self esteem very very very bad to have people put you down but you know what they do that to feed there own deflated ego

You have to learn to fight and keep going it really is three cords and the truth all you have is the talent you believe in and your will and thats all you need

I'v battled illness depreshion incredibly low self esteem and i'm still standing if you believe you can acheive and no self help book has tought me that only my own life exsperionces

If you live life for your dream then even if you fail you have achieved becouse you haven't sat on your butt and given in

End of rammble

 

[Jou Sama]

Miki, can I give you a really really really big hug ; ;?
I really do love my Angels. I don't think I can express that enough.

Lately when looking at pictures of Miyavi I hate looking at his eyes. They just look so heavy with defeat. At the same time they're empty and almost cold. Orrr maybe I'm just looking too much into this <<

Btw, here's the link to the translation of his journal. September 19th

 

[miki78]

owww ANGEL GROUP HUG CALL FROM GRANNY ^________________^ XD

Looking into somebodys eyes is how you learn about there heart there personality comes from there eyes there features not from the words they say or write

Learning to read a persons eyes is how you learn to read there heart its how you learn to write layered charicters and draw the soul in the eyes of your model

people forget that they believe far to much in reading bios and interviews they forget that words lie but the eyes never do

BTW i sent my poetry to a proper publisher i'm just waiting for a verdict

 

[MYV_ANCafe_Lover]

Aww yeah, i kno what you guys mean about his eyes. Like there's this recent pic of him where he's looking down, away from the camera, and his eyes just look sooo sad! It made me feel sad...poor meevs

I'll post the pic if i can find it again...

 

[MiaCarlax]

I thought it was normal to not greatly be fond of yourself O___O
hmm LOL!
Im always kept happy by other people I guess. Except when people turn into horrible people ¬____¬

But Im sure if you have a dream, and you put your heart into it. It will go as you hope
People who give it their heart and soul, get far.

BUT
I GOT THE JOB!
I had a first interview went really well. I walked towards the 2nd and I was really early so he liked that, went into his office and had a chat
and within 15minutes he offeared me the job straight off
and that NEVER happens :O

They ring you back and stuff normally

I start tomorrow at 2
and get my sexy top ;]]

And I havent acctualyl looked at any of the videos as of yet, I just downloaded them. I get my PV's off limewire and such. But the interviews and lfx videos I could never find!

 

[MissMurder]

So, I'm sitting here procrastinating from drawing and reading all of these posts.. and it just makes me so sad. I've seen that look in Miyavis eyes in recent pics and I've noticed there is something wrong. I know that look, I had that same look in my eye for years, it kills me to see it in other people. Seems to be the tragedy of very creative people... anyways. hah.. uhm.. sorry to be a downer.. congrats on the job Miacarlax

 

[Harinezumi]

Thanks for the journal link Jou Sama.
Does anybody read the all journal entries since this horrible one of september? Because it says that miyavi was on trip for a long time, apparently in US cause he celebrated Thanks giving.... So, if he's in long holydays, it's good for him, isn't it?
Congratulations for your job MiaCarlax, Nyappy for you
MissMurder, I also think it's the tradgedy of very creative people, and it apears that poeple who do clown often hide "this sort of sadness" in there heart. But I hope the holydays will really help him.
I've just drawn that, it's not really good cause I did it in 10 minutes, but I thought it was cut. (of course since it's Miyavi)

 

[Lady Blue]

8'200 posts??? OH.. nooooo... miyavi's sooo gaaaay... T_T...

Alright, alright... I'm leaving, sorry. I just had to say that or my head Was blowing up (for as much as some of you would've prefered that to happen... no thanx.)

 

[Lady Blue]

because he´s so gay..? Because he´s an amazing guitarrist but sings horrible..? Because his music is weirdest than gackt´s..? Because he has a strange tatoo catalog printed into him? Because I get so fkn jealous when I see Due le quartz vids and watch him kiss Sakito??

See? No reasons, really... :smoke:

 

[Broken Rose Ren]

Gah, I happen to come back at this moment. >.>

Yeah....Lady Blue. Those are some really silly reasons to dislike an artist. But... gay? Who told you he was gay or did you just insinuate that?

In any case, my angels! Deadline for contributions are Dec 27th. If I don't recieve anything, I soooooo sending that package. Harsh? Maybe. But, I figure if I put lit match under your asses, you'd jump! How's that for motivation? :insert evil laugh here:

Ta ta <3

 

[Broken Rose Ren]

^ hehe. We are sending Miyavi a care package from us fans. Sorta as a response to his Sept. 19th journal entry.

 

[Seshka]

BTW.. I heard a song called papamama.. Ore something?! Does some one have that song..?? I can't find it anywhere.

I HAVE IT! Add me and I'll send it! =D

my IM things are:

MSN: [email protected]

Yahoo: lady_shadow_chan

AIM: Seshka382

Gaia Online: Seshka-chan

Humor-Realm.com: Shadow (in the forum section)

xD And those are, about all the places where anyone can find me. If for some reason I'm not available in any of those places, e-mail me to "[email protected]"


And yes, Anyone can add me, I don't really mind

 

[FreakyD]

What are you sending in the care packige BTW

ill send him my drawing, a bracelett, chocolate from austria, a post card,... and i dont know... im looking for something special tomorrow ^-^
you sent the stuffed dragon thing, didnt you?

 

[Face_da_S]

ok I know I'm a bit late but

HAPPY BIRTH DAY HALES!!!!!!!!!!!​

I made you a birthday card look ^__^
*hopes you'll like it* *giggle*

​

 

[Seshka]

And Face_Da_S <3 That Miyavi pic is so much sparkly love

 

[Jou Sama]

Honestly? I think you should've pushed us about the deadline back in October. Us procrastinators hear "Oh? What's this? We have time?? PERFECT! *kicks back*" Then before we know it the deadline is gone and passed. It's a shame really.
Unfortunately I'm just giving the picture of him I'm.. drawing, the Guardian Angel I drew, and the blue bracelet (or should I give the red one?). I wish I could give him something nice, but I just don't have the money ; ;

 

[Broken Rose Ren]

Ok....

@Jou: I'm sure Miyavi will appreciate anything you send. It doesn't have to be perfect, lord knows mines isn't. As long as you get something to him. This isn't gonna be our last package either, so yeah... I know I should have gave y'all a dead line earlier, but I really didn't think you'd take this long. >.>



Oh, yeh. My package contents are...A teddy bear that reminds me of Miyavi for some reason, a pink fleece blankie and a pink and black checkered wristband. More if I can afford it and if I have time to get them.

Whoo~ Done.

 

[miki78]

Ow yea one each i get it then send him the blue becouse red is a feminine couler in Japan girls mostly wear it

Sooooo you would have the red for a girl and he would have the blue for a boy

I'm Feb the 17th XD just saying

I think mine is stupid too thats why i sent it i spent ages on that poem and collage on the wallpapers and the montage of Mako and finding him a cute teddy

Its the thought that counts he knows you took a lot of time out of your life to make him somethin and that is worth more than money or cool man i sent him a paper hug XD XD