I think the way some of miyavi's fans have been behaving is really shameful on them. It seems like, if you really are someone that supports him it won't matter if he marries or not, has children or not, or even something little like changes his appearance. Miyavi is CONSTANTLY changing his style. He has from the moment he first started on his own path, and he's going to continue to evolve as he *gasp* grows up. Yes that's right, GROWS UP. Just like EVERYONE HERE, we all grow up eventually. Some of us are going to be really lucky and get to do things we love and be at least a little childish for the rest of our lives. But we grow up just the same. It is our priviledge to grow up, to become adults that we can be proud of. We will all make mistakes, will all have unexpected things happen, but the difference between childhood and adulthood is how we react to those unexpected things.
The reactions I've been reading about are making me so angry. I am seeing a lot of supportive fans and THAT makes me happy, because it will make miyavi happy. But I'm also seeing temper tantrums. And those FEW people are making me feel so sorry for miyavi. We are GIFTED with so much of his presence in our lives. No, we don't get personalized email responses. No, we don't get to just call him whenever we want and talk about all our problems. No, we don't get to go for dinner or go to a party together. But we get to read his blog, where he always talks to us like PEOPLE that he CARES about. We get to email him, send messages to him through myspace. When we send him encouraging messages he RESPONDS to that in his blog. And when we send him angry, hurt, confused messages, he responds to those too. I don't understand how people can be so ungrateful for what we are given. He doesn't have to do anything for us. He doesn't have to write about his day or take photos of the things around him (or himself). He doesn't have to worry about what we think or how we're feeling. He certainly doesn't have to read ANY of his fanmail. But he does. For us, to be a part of our lives, even just a little bit.
He has given us so much of himself. Isn't it okay for him to take something for himself? Maybe he "should" have told us. Maybe he would have if he could have. North America is used to seeing celebrity relationshp news blasted across the front pages of countless tabloids; screaming at us from visually shocking locations. It's different in Japan. Celebrities can lose countless fans by dating or marrying, as if it is some 'betrayal' for them to be in love. We all want to be loved, don't we? Are we so selfish that we would really demand that he love no one else even if it made him miserable? Are we so selfish that we would deny him something he wants so much? Just because he abided the rules of his contract and kept his relationship a secret until now? More than anything else in this world I believe Miyavi wants to make music. More than anything else. Is it really so bad for him to also want someone he can share everything with? Someone who knows ALL his secrets? Who understands the world he lives in?
I support miyavi.
I support whatever relationship he chooses to have.
I support his music.
I support his life.
Some people will probably think "she talks so high and mighty but she was probably just crushed like the rest of us and is trying to cover it up by beign cool." I am not going to lie to anyone. When I first saw it I was shocked, hurt, it was like a boyfriend had cheated on me! But I know that feeling for what it is; infatuation, obsession, a crush. It's not real. It's not love. It's lust, desire, jealousy. I decided to put that aside, because there is no reason for it. And under that was a feeling of real love. I want, more than anything, more than him continuing to make music, for miyavi to be happy. I want him to have the best possible life he can. And I believe very strongly that the only person who can make the decisions to achieve that is miyavi. If this is his path, and if it will make him happy, then I will put my idle day-dreams away and tell my "Japanese big-brother" congratulations with a heart-felt smile.
I guess it all comes down to one question though;
Why do YOU love miyavi? The REAL reason. Music? Appearance? Lust?
I know what my answer is.
And miyavi knows some of love him enough to wait patiently, and trustingly.
Now, Crystalize is making the same mistake. 
(joke xD)) There's no reason to not love him anymore. 
