Ok, there is something else that I also have to say, just because it's been bugging my mind and I don't want to be taken as cheap, uncaring or selfish ...
about the thing Genie said before ...
Crys was right, people from third world countries (like mine) often scout for greener pastures....
I hope you all understand, I'm not out to "buy" a bf, and really even if I wish sometimes I could be, it's just not who I am, like Ayu, yes, if I would have been a selfish b*tch I've probably could have gotten him never the less.
It was actually me who said no when I found out he had a gf, he admitted it and he apologized to me so deeply for not telling me. In the end I'm too honest to do something cheap like that, to just get someone here, just because they would want it, or because I would wish it!
Neither did he want to do it to me, as he got to know me, at least as a friend if nothing else ...

... and isn't this a sweet pix of myvs?
(actually I also love the tiger eye necklace ... soo cool *smiles* )
Hm I'm also sad that myvs haven't posted on MySpace for over a week (since the 19th), even if he said he was doing fine, which just mean, he really doesn't want to ... *I miss him ... again ...
... and by the way, who is this girl, 3.11 in this video ?
In the seat besides myvs, she's not cute or anything, but there is something like I don't know familiar between them ... I'm curious anyway?