Goodbilly I am not tryin to be sarcastic or anything but I have read a few of your posts and I honestly can't tell that you have mental difficulties, your writing style sounds just as 'intelligent' as about the average person, perhaps you could elaborate on your specific condition if it is not too personal for you?
Yeah people always found my conditions to be rather interesting. Like the many psychiatrists, and psychologists that does my assessments. The major mental illness I have that causes a major impact on me towards living a normal life is, or least this is what they claim. They say it is because of the fact that, I have a behavior, and personality that is socially unacceptable.
I failed many things, you know? but still I never given up on myself. It's people who given up on me, but I really can't blame them. Do you know why? because I lived for twenty years now, and I always been a hell raiser.
Twenty years... it's a long time, and ever since I was in preschool. They tried their best, they always given their best. They tried to look for new ways to teach me, they tried the best methods available.
Tell me this, honestly tell me. Even if you were one of the special educator, would you have given up? would you have got tired of saying Billy get the heck off the tables, Billy damnmit come back here. The government given me many chances but I failed again, and again. I even tried going the employment path, but guess what? it's either the employer thinking that my intelligent is below the intelligent of an animal, and maybe is true that my short term memory is poorer than an animal's. or it's the other thing, I'm socially unacceptable.
Soon I'm going to a special educational program, ASE(adult special education), I have the same feeling like always, they don't expect too much from us, they never expect us "barbarians", or "animals" to keep employment. Adult special education is different from the children special education. That's because nowadays they're more like wanting to confine us in a classroom at a college.
hey it's just a long story, in fact... it's my life's story.
and one more thing, almost everyone finds that I look completely normal, but like they say, you can't judge a book by it's cover.