Hello Everybody, sorry for not replying... I haven't been very happy these days...
I am trying to keep on with my life, trying to see the bright side of this. Your messages are, as always, inspiring and encouraging me to move on.
I really don't think I will apply next year. Time will tell. This was my 3rd. time and hoped to be the last. I am already 27, I feel like I should already know what to do from now on, but I don't.
Things are complicated in my country, I want to do something for a change, I want to help people from my own spot, which is design. I've been offered to do some volunteer work for an NGO, so I think I'll take a chance on that.
waitingiskillingme, thanks for your message. I admire you have still the strenght to try again next year. I wish you good luck.
Shenoo, you understand me like nobody. I know how you feel and hope you can recover soon. Don't give up! I don't know what to say, and believe my own words T___T
Flidar, thank you for your advice. I'll try to find more information about other scholarship, I'll see. The chance of working in Japan also interests me so I'll see what to do. I see everything black now.
Karinkitoka and
xyznD, thank you for your messages in spanish. It's touching that you actually wrote things in my language, thank you very much. Muchas gracias a todos. I've been warned once for writting in spanish so be careful and try to keep the english

it's good for practice too.
XyznD:your last words really caused an impact for me, I hope God is preparing a VERY GOOD surprise for me, because my heat is already broken.
Karintoka: please drop me a line if you come to Argentina some day! I wish you good luck too!
MEXT2011, as xyznD, your words about God's choice also mean a lot to me. I don't know why God is punishing me with this... fate, destiny, I don't know how to call it. All I know is that sometimes you do everything right and you get nothing in return. I hope my reward to come someday, I don't care much about the delay, I just want this effort to pay off, and stop feeling like I wasted time, money and lots and lots of nerves and tears.
Now I'll stop the whining
I've chatted yesterday with
Alemid4, still no news from Brazil T___T she is having a tough time so let's prey for her too.
I don't think I'll be around this forum too much, so if you want to contact me via MSN, facebook, gtalk, you are welcome! Send me a PM. I'll try to log in from time to time to see how things are (I am pretty much used to it anyway...) I really want to keep in touch with you.
I know someone that might be interested in sharing his appartment with someone in Yokohama. He was going to share it with me but now he is on his own again. He is near the area of Minato Mirai, I've seen photos of the house and it's big and comfortable. Send me a PM if you are interested.
Now, that's it sorry for writing so long...
Thank you for your support all these months. Hugs, kisses to every corner of the world.