Did you watch the new DVD?
Did you read his last comment on this DVD?
After the live in America?
This is what makes me feel so sad and why I worry so much about him!
"Right now, it is 6AM,
and I am about to take a shower and get my breakfast
and go to Chile by way of Dallas.
What I felt after the US performances,
was that
I was not wrong
Actually I was worrying the whole time,
And thinking right up to when I went on tour.
I was scared.
I wonder
is this because of my self-righteousness.
how I just do things my own way.
or is this just because I am simply egotistical.
But,
that wasnt it.
To say it exactly,
It wasnt there.
it is not how my music style is this or that,
It is my own how I treat my fans, that is it.
Im sorry for before now.
Haha
oh man, that brought me to tears. lol
aa, today is a travel day so its cool.
aa
I am typing bawling my eyes out. lol)
．．awawa, what the hell.
This image of a 26-year-old man（年齢は非公表で御願いします）
San Francisco, 6 oclock in the morning
alone at a hotel, writing in his blog while crying is too surreal. lol
．．it wont stop.
aa
oh well, Ill just continue.
When we broke up, the words and expressions of all the fans of Duele Quartz (The first band I joined when I came to Tokyo) have always been stuck in my mind.
Of course when we broke up we talked to each other about doing it so that each of us can face each of our futures and be optimistic, so together with tears and snot I cut off my feelings and attachments and I was able to put one step forward toward the next, but
I do not know how I should live from tomorrow
My goals and hopes in life are gone.
I felt like I may as well die
is what I thought at that time.
That is wrong.
I cannot let myself think that way.
like, isnt my way of being or my relationship different?
I am a human being just the same as everyone.
I brush my teeth and I go to the bathroom.
And someday I will probably not be able to make music anymore,
I might die, suddenly.
Im really sorry for saying this.
But no matter how much of a rock star one is we are the same human beings.
So when that sort of day comes it isnt strange, is it?
Therefore, if, when that happens, I felt I would absolutely not want to make myself feel that way, and I thought a lot, rather than as a musician and fans but as human beings and human beings.
I thought,
and thought,
and probably thought too much.
Somewhere there were parts that I avoided about being direct with all my fans.
What could it be．．？
I couldnt do it kindly.
I felt I shouldnt do it.
But I was wrong.
Thats not how it was.
That is not where it was.
What is important
is not keeping a distance so that doesnt happen
but is having a relationship where we can overcome it if it does happen.
Sorry for making you only feel lonesome.
Of course I still plan on blasting away the small musical categories and walls that hold onto their genres, and I am going to break through with my own original
samurai style, but
But I will always leave a special seat beside me.
So now I can say it proudly
i love u
．．haha, this image is SO surreal, after all. lol） I couldnt figure out what was what or what I wanted to say anymore right in the middle of it,
but Im trying anyway.
Aa damn I gotta go.
Im off.
Wait up, everyone in Chile.
Oh an Im writing here and there in my official Myspace lately too,
so check it out, okay.
See ya,
love ya.
much respect
With love to the whole world from San Francisco,
／myv"
I cried....