Thanks everyone for the advices.
Well , I'm really not considering going back home , infact ,I know I would rather chatter under the chou sen wheels.
My only chance to build a future is in Japan , many may not understand. But I want to study and work in Japan. I'm pretty confident about my dreams.
It's true my financial abilities are limitied , but not "none". In comparison with my friends I may be having more difficulties , but I'm surviving .
And this semmon gaku , exactly what you said Elizabeth , is much cheaper than others for the truth they give a 50 percent off for gaijins. The Japanese course I have been studying so far was on aims for entering to a higher Japanese education center in the first place.
I'm still looking for someone to lend me this money and print out a deposit proof, but it's true that I don't know that much Japanese people , or atleast , we are not as good friends for them to care for my future in such a way.
The closest I am is with my sensei , and they have not shown any interest at helping me out (shock) ..
What about the Yakusa ?? is it for true ?? Where can I find such a person ??
Please , keep on leading me .
Suki-yaki