+D'espairsRay+

[Average_Psycho]

I'm doing my best to keep this place as D'espa visual as I can

-sniff- I know, this is going to sound absolutely horrid to you guys but.... -sniff- I give up. I'll never see them unless I go to them, and me being as young as I am, that won't be happening for years to come. So I give up on seeing them live. The closest they'll come to Canada is somehwere in the US. And that's it. I'm seriously crying here, it hurts so bad to say it, but I truly give up.

Fiance? She? Huh? -really confused-

 

[furan]

awwwww Average Phycho... you need to corrupt someone over 18 into loving them so that they can take you to see them!
please don't give up!
as long as you have somewhere to go... you should ba alowd to go next year, right?

maybe your pearents will take pitty and decide to take a family vacation to wherever they're playing....
thaere are many possibilities....

yeah... she has a fiance... who's a she....
i have *counts* 3 wives? but i wan a devorce from one of them
and go knows how many 'wives to be' :relife:


hmm.... i'm guesing as they aint been posted.... seomthing did go wrong

you know what? you need to apply to a job there.... and then you can just leave you laptop in the staff room or what ever, loading, whilst youre buisy serving people their coffee......


err.... actually... maybe you serving wouldn't be such a great idea... but... there are other jobs you could do
*has just had a horrible ission of you tripping ans falling breaking pretty much everything in the shop*

 

[Average_Psycho]

No one I know would care for Japanese music. No matter how GREAT they are. I can't stop it now. All because of that ***** and so many others saying they won't come. And then the announcment of them going back to the East Coast, it's too much. I give up. I don't think there's anything else I can do. Next year? No way, I don't turn 15 next year until September 30. And even then my parents wouldn't let me go. They're not letting me do anything on my own like that.

-laughs bitterly- My parents take pity on me?! Oh, that's rich. They'd never even dream of taking pity on me! Especiall if it has anything to do with JRock. It's pure luck that dad's even letting me order online, and he still doesn't want me to. But no, my parents hate the states too much (epecially my mom) to go there. So there really is no chance for me until I'm like 20. I really am crying, it's so hard to say this.

What? Ok, I'm still uberly confused right now.

Of course something went wrong. Internet connections must hate her...

 

[furan]

.... *ponders*

well... if i can find a summer when they're in the states... and i happen to be free and my dad's offereing me a holidy...
i actually have always wanted to go to Canada....
i'll go... steal you away... we'll fly down to wherever they're playing, meet up with pkk... and then we can all go see them together.....

i you know i seriously would do that if i could....

*sigh*
but if it makes you feel even the slightst bit better.... i had tickets to see BLOOD.... but ended up not going because of complications....
not only were they playing like, 45 minutes away from me... but they were also THE first VK band to ever play in england....

however, i should stop complaining, i had fun doing what i had to do instead so...

but... i also can't go see them.... and will probably never be able to see them....
and i'm 17...

i don't know... i guess i'm not helping....


but i know i'll never get to see Pura.... or Kagrra,....
i came to deal with that a good while ago....
and i guess i'm alright with it....
but then.... they've also never toured outside Japan yet..
atleast i don;t think Pura have.. :?

 

[Average_Psycho]

You'd steal me away? Oh yeah, my parents would love that. Someone I met in an online Forum, coming to my house and taking me to a Japanese concert somewhere in the States. No offense intended AT ALL, but my parents would be very uneasy about that. Not that I'd really care though....

You really would? That's so kind! -sniff-

BLOOD!? I can't find any of their stuff when I try to use LimeWire I think it hates me, and they're so good too!

No, you're not really helping. I'm actually contemplating on whether or not I should just leave this thread, it's depressing me so much. But I feel so stupidly pathetic, getting so depressed over a band. (A band that I love every aspect of, the music, vocals, personalities [Hizu-chan's fav and disliked foods], apearance, etc.) -hates to think it- I might even leave JRef for a while, you know, not sign in, avoid the computer. Maybe only for a few days, maybe longer.

Poor you, and you, who loves Kagrra, ever so much.

 

[furan]

....this may be hard for you to imagin.... but i love Plastic tree even more....
like you've said, every stinking aspect avbout them...
... just thinking about them fills me with so much emotion sometimes the i just can't help but cry...
they make me cry a lot.... i can't stand to watch lives because i'm still having difficulty dealing with the fact that they are indeed real

yeah... i know that wouldn't help too much
but... if it make anydifference... i'm very lovable?
and terribly good at lieing.... wait... that's not a good thing for you to har

i can send you a bunch of their stuff if you want...
i do love them tho...
*sigh*... and i had an actualy ticket....

..... i do that sometimes....
we'll be waiting for you hear when you come bakc
and we'll have moved on topics from d'espa's tour to... terribly perverted thoughts..... and happy times....


hey, if you wanna get depressed, there's a thread for that too... it's caled 'Pura?'

 

[Average_Psycho]

You love Pura even more than what/who? Wow, you are affected by Pura like I'm affected by D'espa. And I don't even have D'espa's Murder Day DVD yet. But I do have clips, and they're soo awesome. Some songs remind me of my sister, and I cry. Speaking of which, it's the 26th of August today, and in 18 days................. O_O already!? So soon!!!!!!!! -sniff- Anyways... in 18 days I guess (or however many days until Sept. 13, my math might be off), it'll be the 12th anniversary of my sister's death. So I won't be on. And if I am, tell me to leave and spend time with my family. Technically I shouldn't be on from the 13th to the 17th, because her funeral was on the 17th, so yeah... I'll be really depressing to talk to....

I knew that was a lie ven without reading the line beneath it.

You could? Is that even possible? I'd have to think something up of how I got them.... -shifty eyes-

Are you sure you'd be willing to wait as long as like 2 weeks maybe? Just think about it, I won't be here to help pkk stay on topic. And you guys just might let the thread fall to the last page again. I can't let hat happen. As long as we don't talk bout D'espa concerts and lives, I think I'll be ok. But then again, I might not.

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

What the hell happened here. *smacks you all around* You give up... oh I see... YOU WILL NEVER GET ANYTHING IN LIFE WITHOUT TRYING DAMNIT... ****... you guys... I mean c'mon stop it. If you expect everything to get handed on a silver platter your ******* wrong... life isn't easy... and things just don't get handed to you... you have to work... it takes blood, sweat, and tears. THAT is what makes it worth it... makes it satisfying. I get so tired of myself whining and other people whining... you want something so bad... DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. You are never to old or young for the things you want to happen or dreams to come true... your never too unfortunate... I'm tired... damn tired... stop whining... stop crying... MAKE IT HAPPEN! But you guys can't do that can you... no your all whining and all talk... you have opportunities in front of you... all you do is pine over them... I feel sorry for you. You don't always get second chances... this is a second chance... it's a blessing. There may never be a next time... and then what... will you forgive yourself

Now... *breathes* I hope that got you mad at me and makes you want to prove to me you can make it happen. That was my aim.
(I don't mean all that... I just want you to prove that you can... I know sure as hell I want show people they are wrong... now show me. )

Happy thoughts now... or I'll bite your bloody heads of. *evil glare*

 

[Average_Psycho]

Well, what the ******* hell do you expect me to do!? Huh? I can't do **** to see them, because I'm too young, and my parents wouldn't dream of paying for a plane flight for me to go to a concert, especially in the US! And I dont' have the money to pay for a plane ticket and a concert ticket! I probably don't even have enough money to pay for one THIRD of the goddamned plane ticket. Even if they WERE to go somewhere I could somewhat easily get to, they'd still not let me go. By myself or with anyone. So what the ******* hell am I supposed to do? I can't do anything because I'm too young GODDAMNIT! The most I can do is send a ******* fanmail/qustion to the guys and all but BEG them to come to Canada! There have been a lot of ****** things happening in my life, and a lot of it recently, I have no control over it, and I accept it. But I don't think I'll accept this from you, pkk. I am not trying to sound bitchy, it's just that I've been under a LOT of stress lately, and I don't need someone lecturing me about having to do things myself if I want them to happen. How do you think I got my own computer in my room? It was because I worked hard and kept my marks ata great average all throughout the school year. It's not easy, and this year will be even harder. As will next year. It's just over a week before school starts, and I don't need this. Hell, I have to get myself together if I'm going to make it through September! And those particular details you do not need nor want to know about.

It's not a second chance for m, it's impossible for me to go to a concert of any kind out of the country whilst I am still a minor. It is a second chance for you to see D'espairsRay live.

I'd love to prove you wrong pkk, but I simply can't. I can't go to see D'espairsRay, unless they come into Canada, and that could take YEARS. My parents are always saying (and hopinh) that I'll grow out of my love for Japanese things, most especially their music. And who knows, maybe by the time that D'espairsRay does come to Canada, I may not even like Japanese music at all.

-takes a deep breath- Now that I've got that off my mind. I'm going to go work on my D'espa outfit. For some strange reason, I remember what the back looked like when I first saw it in my mind.

But first, some more D'espa pictures.

Already posted, I know, but meh. He too adorable to ignore.

All these wonderful images from http://www.wollustwarddemwurmgegeben.de.vu/

 

[furan]

why did Pura have to come on?

now i'm really crying...

*sigh* in all reality... nothing we can say will make all the difference... you're obviously set on these thoughts...
but... i hope one day you'll realise that... i you truely whant something... it doesn't hurt to try.
christ, i'm 17 and i'm still governed by my dad... i know what it's like to go through traumatic things... and to have a hell of a lot of **** on your shoulders.... i'm not saying i know what it's like for you... just that... we all have our problems... but we all have to work though them...

truth is, yes... your young... but when i was your age i whent though something most people don't have to deal with untill they're al least 50... but i did all the same... and i did it my self...
i got on with my life, and i made things happen...
i dreamed of singing on the school stage... and, yeah, it was at the very end of the year, but i still got there... and i wone the repect of a lot of people by doing that... ofcause, i was buggering off to Leicester in 2 weeks, so...i never really got to experisece the full effect, but.. i left an impression, that i know for sure...
i... i have no idea what the remevence of this is... but... by me doing that.. i concored a lot of my fears and anxiatys, on top of all the crap in my life at that point...

i guess what i'm saying is... even though your life seems like it's at the worst point ....you can still achive yor goals...
hell, i passed all my AS exams (half of an Alevel - the exams that determin wether tyou go to uni) when i was going throuh a completel mental err... break down.. i think that's the word....
and i thought i was gnna fail them all... so....


... *sigh* sorry... this is ment to be something to help... but i bet it's not....

o... pkk, i haven't completely given up... if the oportunity comes around.. i guess i'd try to go.. but... i don;t know if i'd let myself... i seem to have this thing that stops me from letting my self do the things i really want...


and Average Psycho? those pictures are devine

 

[furan]

o, yeah... and i ment, i love Pura een more than Kagrra,

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

*hugs you both tightly* Nothing is impossible. First off... did you even ask your parents if it would be possible? I guess I'm gonna have to share my story... my memory. Even parents as horrible as mine who starve me care. I told my mom nothing was going to stop me from going to see Muse live. She didn't believe me. She still didn't believe me when my ticket came in the mail. She didn't believe me me when I was pricing hotels or buses to get there. She thought me and my friend really weren't gonna go. Neither of us had a car or a job at the time and not to mention it was in the middle of our finals. I asked her one night about some small print on the site for the buses. It said that they weren't responsible for us once were dropped off and they don't always drop you off at a bus station. My mom nearly died. She thought they were gonna just leave us in the middle of a city neither of us had been to at 2;30 in the morning. That was the expected time of our arrival... I told her we'd take a cab to our hotel but she said she didn't trust cab drivers... I came home from school the next day and she had all me and my friends notes we took to compare prices and bus schedules and different hotels and maps and was planning the trip for us. I was like "what the hell are you doing?" She told me she knew we really were gonna go and we were really serious but she couldn't let us be there all defenseless in a city weve never been to. She agreed to drive us there as long as the two of us paid (which was just me since she had no money) for every cost of the trip and went to church with her. Well... as furan knows... I went. It's not impossible... and your not gonna try. You could babysit or something... there are opportunities for people your age who aren't old enough for jobs. If you say "No I don't want to do that" then I don't feel sorry for you if you don't go. Atleast make the effort... where would I have been if I hadn't. If it worked for the most unluckiest of people, me, then why not for you.

Grrr..... if this doesn't work. I'll just have to make you guys madder at me.

 

[furan]

nawwww
it's such a great story *tear*
it makes me smile every time i read it
err... i mean.... i didn't read it a good number of times.........

i do hope we can maybe bring your spirits up a little...

D'espairsRay are a young band.... look at Pura, they've been going over 10 years and have never played outsie of Japan (or at lieast i don't think they have :?)
i don;t know how far D'espairsRay have been playing, but i know that out of all the jrock bands... their music is the one that all my friends accept as good decent music (tho, they like Diru and MUCC too - D'espa are their faves)
so... i can see them doing a propper tour if America in the years to come...

who knows... mybe Karyu will keep his promiss and even come to London someday....

they've got a lot of years ahead of them.... so please don't get too despaired over this....

 

[Average_Psycho]

And just what exactly do you suggest I try doing? Until the tour dates are announced, I really can't do anything. I guess it's worth a try. It'd just be so much better if they'd come to Canada. My parents wouldn't be so upset about it all.

Damn you and your persuation skills >_<

 

[furan]

lol...
well... you can start planning how to get the money....
you know the times... maybe you could see if someone you know is going into the states at the arround that time?
you can look at prices and things...
there's plenty you can do...

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

And just what exactly do you suggest I try doing? Until the tour dates are announced, I really can't do anything. I guess it's worth a try. It'd just be so much better if they'd come to Canada. My parents wouldn't be so upset about it all.

Damn you and your persuation skills >_<

Anything you can... everything you can. First get yourself some money girl. Price tickets... look into hotels. I'll even help you if you want... I'll help you find the cheapest and most convenient way... I'll help you plan and get maps together... anything you need... just don't give up... not this soon... no not even that... never! Talk to your parents tell them you are going and its really important to you, perhaps even the most important thing in your life at the moment... an opportunity you would never forgive yourself for if you didn't take it. Maybe they'll understand... maybe they'll even help...

They clearly aren't working as well as I planned.

Damn... you guys... I have to leave town... a hurricane is coming and I have to evacuate... I'll be gone for three days... I'll miss you guys... and my D'espa thread.

 

[furan]

............................... *stares blankly at the screen*

you're..... LEAVING ME!


.... *in a tiney voice* you're leaving me? mew.......






....mew.......

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

I don't wanna leave... I have to leave my artwork... there is no room to pack it all. If my house gets destroyed... my art... my babies My Hizumi painting. what if it dies... or my Diru drawings... I'd rather stay here and die with them...

 

[furan]

yeah....

my whole hissy fit and getting all mad at you is just me hiding the fact that i'm really worried about you!

*sniff*

..... i don't want your artwork to go.... god.... i really have NO idea what i'd do if i had to leave al this stuff behind to possibly be distroyed....
i had a hard enough time just clearing it out... i cryed throwing some old broken toys away.....

*hugs* not that it'll do anything... but i'll pray for your lil house

o gees.... i hate praying, i always get into an argument with him... but it's for the good of all your stuff!

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

*sniffs*

I can bring my laptop though... and all my dvds and cds playstation and games... I have room for those... but I have so much art most of it is big... man... this can't happen... my digital art gone in my computer crash and now my real art may be destroyed in a hurricane... I can't bear that... I have no choice... it's a category 4... it may get to a 5 (which 5 is the highest) my family is leaving and even if I chain myself to the wall they'll take me and the wall out of town. Atleast I'll have my entertainment... and a god 3 days off of work... but my art... I would die without it... even if I hate the majority of it... it's priceless to me... irreplaceble.

I appreciate that... I really do.

I'll have D'espa... they always make me better.

I felt really stupid... I was thinking OMG... Houston... I wonder if there are any worthwhile gigs there when I flee (that's where we are going) then I remembered... I'm about to lose my house quite possibly... how could I possibly enjoy those three days.

 

[furan]

......... *whines even more*

i know... i TOTTALY get what you mean about the art work...
we had a fier drill at school... and we were MADE to leve out bags...
i managed to grab Phillip, but... my bag.... with my scetch book... i had to leave it...

i didn't know it was a drill... i was destrot... i woudn't stop whinging....
god they're mean making me do that...

well... i woulnd't pray for anyone...
GAH damn me and my needing sleep....
i hope... i hope Muse pay a suprise visit to Huston while your there adn you get to go and they see and reccognise you (it could happen!) and then invite you to hang with them after.........
.... maybe you'll enjoy it a little bit then.....


....

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

Who knows... *shrugs*
Maybe there are traces of D'espa... maybe I can walk the same streets they did...maybe there will be a huge record store unlike where I live that has lots of jrock and awesome live dvds... I guess that could happen... I just know everyone is gonna end up sitting in the hotel praying incessantly our house will survive while I desperately want to get away from them... they be all "no... we are all here and safe... lets stay together" *rolls eyes* I want to stay back at my house so I can be away from them and with the things I care about...

 

[furan]

*hugs*

i hope you find a way to get away and.... not worry too much...
and...



....
*whimpers* i damn well hope he understands that i don't bloodywell ask him for much.... *glares upwords*
tho... maybe being nice to him once in a while ight help
(to me, God's a man... only a man would be bigheaded enough to want everyone to worship him and only him....)

*slaps self* this isn't a 'talk about religion thread!


...... all i can say is... i hope you're safe... and that what ever damage occurs... it isn't too diare....

 

[pinkkillerkisou]

Yea... I kind want to walk the streets downtown alone with my head hung low... maybe it'll be rainy and I can get all wet and not be bothered by it or anything around me... I would like that... ^^;

Well... I can't honestly say what I believe... I know what I've been taught to believe. I'm not sure what I really feel. I know there is something... somone responsible for everyone... I call him God.. for all I know his name could be Bob... the point is... I acknowledge his existence but I guess like the rest of the world I try to ignore him and hope he'll ignore me till I need serious help. I feel bad for feeling that. :sorry:

Yea... thanks... now it's your turn to worry about me. I've worried about you enough... it's your turn

OMG... I'm gonna break my 2 day record for time spent away from jref... 3 days... I don't think I can survive

 

[furan]

i love to do that...
.... i love the rain......

hmm.... i belive in them all.... like, every single last one o them... but i don;t believe that there's anything special about them... i just don;t see why we should worship them... it's not like it's ever made a difference to me..... (but it can't hurt to try )
lol, don;t feel bad... i think... if he was an all loving God... he'd want us to live our lives the way we want...

hee hee... aww, we're such worry whales

nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
(still, i had three weeks so.....)