Finals are almost over here. In fact I just got done cramming for one tomorrow, which I guess is technically today. But finals aren't what I really want to talk about or what is on my mind, at least it's not what urged me to write this blog.
Earlier today I went out to dinner with two of my friends at an Indian restaurant just a couple minutes walk from my dorm. Naturally we talked and had chit-chat/conversation about whatever was on our minds. Well, they had conversations, I mostly sat and listened instead of talked. The truth is I was completely bored. In fact, 80% of the time the conversation I am in is completely boring. This isn't just friends here, but anyone, including friends back home.
I find that I'm always having to put up a facade to fake interest lest I show I am bored and insult the person/s I am talking with. I basically smile, fake laughs often and ask empty questions to keep the conversation going and give the person the impression I am interested. That is why I tend to be quiet in social settings and I suppose that's why I have a fairly low post count even after 4 years here. It sounds rude, but I'm just not interested in most of the conversations that go on around me. I don't really care what someone thinks of a certain genre of music, I don't really care about the mundane details of someone else's life, and I don't really care how much someone's next day/week/test is going to suck.
Or I should say, I don't care enough to participate in the conversation. I can sit and listen just fine, but I will probably be bored and not have an interest in talking. It's not that I dislike my friends or other people, on the contrary I quite enjoy the company of my friends. I don't know why I find so many of the things everyone talks about boring. I suppose my major, physics, isn't a topic that often enters into everyday conversation.
So I suppose I should take this time to apologize. The reason I rarely open the JREF room is mainly because of this. The only times I open it are usually when I want to discuss something or am bored :sorry:
And I realize I write this at the risk of sounding like an arrogant *****, but when I say I'm not interested in most of the conversations around me I don't mean my interests are better than someone else's or that someone is uninteresting. Indeed, interest is a completely subjective thing. I will say, though, that it is pretty hard for me to get along with someone who is the opposite. That is, someone who is loud and always talking. I know one such person here also from America and I can usually stand him for only 5 minutes or so. Well, he also is complaining 90% of the time so I suppose that also has something to do with it.
Anyway, I've got a final bright and early in the morning so I should go get some sleep
Earlier today I went out to dinner with two of my friends at an Indian restaurant just a couple minutes walk from my dorm. Naturally we talked and had chit-chat/conversation about whatever was on our minds. Well, they had conversations, I mostly sat and listened instead of talked. The truth is I was completely bored. In fact, 80% of the time the conversation I am in is completely boring. This isn't just friends here, but anyone, including friends back home.
I find that I'm always having to put up a facade to fake interest lest I show I am bored and insult the person/s I am talking with. I basically smile, fake laughs often and ask empty questions to keep the conversation going and give the person the impression I am interested. That is why I tend to be quiet in social settings and I suppose that's why I have a fairly low post count even after 4 years here. It sounds rude, but I'm just not interested in most of the conversations that go on around me. I don't really care what someone thinks of a certain genre of music, I don't really care about the mundane details of someone else's life, and I don't really care how much someone's next day/week/test is going to suck.
Or I should say, I don't care enough to participate in the conversation. I can sit and listen just fine, but I will probably be bored and not have an interest in talking. It's not that I dislike my friends or other people, on the contrary I quite enjoy the company of my friends. I don't know why I find so many of the things everyone talks about boring. I suppose my major, physics, isn't a topic that often enters into everyday conversation.
So I suppose I should take this time to apologize. The reason I rarely open the JREF room is mainly because of this. The only times I open it are usually when I want to discuss something or am bored :sorry:
And I realize I write this at the risk of sounding like an arrogant *****, but when I say I'm not interested in most of the conversations around me I don't mean my interests are better than someone else's or that someone is uninteresting. Indeed, interest is a completely subjective thing. I will say, though, that it is pretty hard for me to get along with someone who is the opposite. That is, someone who is loud and always talking. I know one such person here also from America and I can usually stand him for only 5 minutes or so. Well, he also is complaining 90% of the time so I suppose that also has something to do with it.
Anyway, I've got a final bright and early in the morning so I should go get some sleep