What's new

Random stuff

Finals are almost over here. In fact I just got done cramming for one tomorrow, which I guess is technically today. But finals aren't what I really want to talk about or what is on my mind, at least it's not what urged me to write this blog.

Earlier today I went out to dinner with two of my friends at an Indian restaurant just a couple minutes walk from my dorm. Naturally we talked and had chit-chat/conversation about whatever was on our minds. Well, they had conversations, I mostly sat and listened instead of talked. The truth is I was completely bored. In fact, 80% of the time the conversation I am in is completely boring. This isn't just friends here, but anyone, including friends back home.

I find that I'm always having to put up a facade to fake interest lest I show I am bored and insult the person/s I am talking with. I basically smile, fake laughs often and ask empty questions to keep the conversation going and give the person the impression I am interested. That is why I tend to be quiet in social settings and I suppose that's why I have a fairly low post count even after 4 years here. It sounds rude, but I'm just not interested in most of the conversations that go on around me. I don't really care what someone thinks of a certain genre of music, I don't really care about the mundane details of someone else's life, and I don't really care how much someone's next day/week/test is going to suck.

Or I should say, I don't care enough to participate in the conversation. I can sit and listen just fine, but I will probably be bored and not have an interest in talking. It's not that I dislike my friends or other people, on the contrary I quite enjoy the company of my friends. I don't know why I find so many of the things everyone talks about boring. I suppose my major, physics, isn't a topic that often enters into everyday conversation.

So I suppose I should take this time to apologize. The reason I rarely open the JREF room is mainly because of this. The only times I open it are usually when I want to discuss something or am bored :sorry:

And I realize I write this at the risk of sounding like an arrogant *****, but when I say I'm not interested in most of the conversations around me I don't mean my interests are better than someone else's or that someone is uninteresting. Indeed, interest is a completely subjective thing. I will say, though, that it is pretty hard for me to get along with someone who is the opposite. That is, someone who is loud and always talking. I know one such person here also from America and I can usually stand him for only 5 minutes or so. Well, he also is complaining 90% of the time so I suppose that also has something to do with it.

Anyway, I've got a final bright and early in the morning so I should go get some sleep :sleep:

Comments

There are no comments to display.

Journal entry information

Author
Half-n-Half
Read time
3 min read
Views
597
Last update

More entries in Blogroll

More entries from Half-n-Half

  • Going back to Japan
    As some people may know I studied abroad at Tohoku University during the Fall of 2010. I had to...
  • Home in America
    So here I am in America, listening to a sappy piano song getting into a sappy mood about to...
  • 最近の生活
    So it's been quite awhile! I've been in Japan now for a little over 3 months, so I don't think I...
  • The nuances of language
    I just had a really interesting realization, something I can thank studying Japanese and talking...
  • 3 Year Anniversary!
    I just realized this, but today is my 3 year anniversary here at JREF! It's been really fun...
Back
Top Bottom