Good day to everyone.
I need advice or opinion from the third side. It's a little bit long, but I'll appreciate any advice.
It's been 2 years since I came to Japan. I was study at Japanese language school. Last 6 month I'm working at renovation company of my friend. They are couple, she is western and he is Japanese. I was searching for job and they where searching for graphic designer. I showed them my portfolio and they liked it. I started to work there, and my boss started to give me some interior tasks to. Have to say it's hard. I was suppose to learn how to work with some soft for making planing of project, to learn how to make this plan. to work with manufactures, workers, to plan and to think about materials, that I have no idea about. I still isn't had N2. Obvious there was some problems on the way, and still now. A lot of them becomes I have know knowledge about architecture and interior.
My boss really tough about everything, that have any connection to work. Sometimes he angry at me, coz I didn't asked, didn't consultant. It's logical, but I didn't even though, that I have to, coz I even didn't hunk that it can be a problem. Sounds stupid, but it's sometime I don't understand what he want or he give to many tasks.
Something, that Japanese call 報告、連絡、相談. It was my weak point.
I was studding from 9:00, and from 14:00 I was at office. My work day would me until 21:99, but it was impossible to finish everything and I stayed until last train. Last 6 month my grade at school started to drop, but somehow I managed to pass N2 and to graduate. A lot of pressure. A lot of work interior + graphic.
My boss is a good man, but when he got angry, he started to be really cruel. Lately I'm not happy at all, a lot of pressure. I'm not sleeping enough, I'm always +/- 2 kg, the worst I lot a list of hair coz of stress.
If client want to meet on your free fay, you have to go to work. And it rude to ask when you can get free day instead. In my free day I'm next to the comp, doing projects.
This firm started to do a work visa for me. Coz I was so busy with school and work I even didn't searched for another work.
Couple days ago my boss got really angry and started to scream on me in front of other stuff, sad really privet staff as : "you are xx years old and you have thi thing and thinking, go back to your country". Called me pig and trough away flowers, that I got from company for my graduation. He sad, that pigs don't deserve flowers. He tossed folders to the wall. I was really scared at that point and got really humiliated. I sad, that I want to leave and to search for another job. He started to get more angry and to ask why. He sad, that he don't have any problem with my work, but with my communication. That I can't say everything I think, as my opinion, he is the boss, and I can't tell him such staff.
I signed documents, and he sad, that when he would cancel my application for visa - he would tell them, that I was working more house, that I was suppose to. That mean, that I would have problem. Plus my student visa inspired in 3 month.
My boss asks his wife to talk to me, then other staff.
Past two days I send my portfolio to different pleases.
Yesterday I had talk with my boss, he didn't talked about documents I signet. He talked about his company, about goals and gaijin live in Japan. Seems like everything started to get relaxes. From next month there suppose to come new staff and I need to teach her about interior work.
My boss sed, that I'll be doing more graphic work. With support on interior.
And today I got letter from design company, that I applied, they want my CV to my portfolio. I really want to go to interview, it's really cool company. And it's work in my specialty. To work in design team, with other designers. To study and get better in design.
I want to try, but if they will say ok, I don't know what to do with company, that I'm in now.
Can I Still get work visa from one company if other company will cancel application. It would look bad in my file, isn't? When company applying for a visa for their worker, they paint something? I feel really bad, co they made all documents. And me and other staff for to immigration office to give them.
Do u have to give explanation about why u want to live? In my contract writhing down, that if I want to live, I need to tell them 1month before.
Plus my relation with my friend got really bad. She don't speak to me. Even if she know what he sad to me. I can't get angry, coz I understand, that they are marred.
What I wanted to ask.
I feel really bad if I would like to accept job that I want. That would be better for me from the carrier side.
I feel, that I owe them. But from other side, it's my life, I came here to work in my profession and now I doing something different.
I would be really bad person If I would live. But then I remember how my boss was screaming on me, his words and actions. He is dangerous to deal with. I'm scared, that co he would get offended he would say everything to immigration office and they would not give me a visa in the future.
I'm totally lost.
But i feel really bad inside. Just when I'm thinking about this situation, tears showed out. I cant held it. I'm really unhappy and stressed. I never feels that bad in my life.
May be someone can give me some advise.
Thank you.
I need advice or opinion from the third side. It's a little bit long, but I'll appreciate any advice.
It's been 2 years since I came to Japan. I was study at Japanese language school. Last 6 month I'm working at renovation company of my friend. They are couple, she is western and he is Japanese. I was searching for job and they where searching for graphic designer. I showed them my portfolio and they liked it. I started to work there, and my boss started to give me some interior tasks to. Have to say it's hard. I was suppose to learn how to work with some soft for making planing of project, to learn how to make this plan. to work with manufactures, workers, to plan and to think about materials, that I have no idea about. I still isn't had N2. Obvious there was some problems on the way, and still now. A lot of them becomes I have know knowledge about architecture and interior.
My boss really tough about everything, that have any connection to work. Sometimes he angry at me, coz I didn't asked, didn't consultant. It's logical, but I didn't even though, that I have to, coz I even didn't hunk that it can be a problem. Sounds stupid, but it's sometime I don't understand what he want or he give to many tasks.
Something, that Japanese call 報告、連絡、相談. It was my weak point.
I was studding from 9:00, and from 14:00 I was at office. My work day would me until 21:99, but it was impossible to finish everything and I stayed until last train. Last 6 month my grade at school started to drop, but somehow I managed to pass N2 and to graduate. A lot of pressure. A lot of work interior + graphic.
My boss is a good man, but when he got angry, he started to be really cruel. Lately I'm not happy at all, a lot of pressure. I'm not sleeping enough, I'm always +/- 2 kg, the worst I lot a list of hair coz of stress.
If client want to meet on your free fay, you have to go to work. And it rude to ask when you can get free day instead. In my free day I'm next to the comp, doing projects.
This firm started to do a work visa for me. Coz I was so busy with school and work I even didn't searched for another work.
Couple days ago my boss got really angry and started to scream on me in front of other stuff, sad really privet staff as : "you are xx years old and you have thi thing and thinking, go back to your country". Called me pig and trough away flowers, that I got from company for my graduation. He sad, that pigs don't deserve flowers. He tossed folders to the wall. I was really scared at that point and got really humiliated. I sad, that I want to leave and to search for another job. He started to get more angry and to ask why. He sad, that he don't have any problem with my work, but with my communication. That I can't say everything I think, as my opinion, he is the boss, and I can't tell him such staff.
I signed documents, and he sad, that when he would cancel my application for visa - he would tell them, that I was working more house, that I was suppose to. That mean, that I would have problem. Plus my student visa inspired in 3 month.
My boss asks his wife to talk to me, then other staff.
Past two days I send my portfolio to different pleases.
Yesterday I had talk with my boss, he didn't talked about documents I signet. He talked about his company, about goals and gaijin live in Japan. Seems like everything started to get relaxes. From next month there suppose to come new staff and I need to teach her about interior work.
My boss sed, that I'll be doing more graphic work. With support on interior.
And today I got letter from design company, that I applied, they want my CV to my portfolio. I really want to go to interview, it's really cool company. And it's work in my specialty. To work in design team, with other designers. To study and get better in design.
I want to try, but if they will say ok, I don't know what to do with company, that I'm in now.
Can I Still get work visa from one company if other company will cancel application. It would look bad in my file, isn't? When company applying for a visa for their worker, they paint something? I feel really bad, co they made all documents. And me and other staff for to immigration office to give them.
Do u have to give explanation about why u want to live? In my contract writhing down, that if I want to live, I need to tell them 1month before.
Plus my relation with my friend got really bad. She don't speak to me. Even if she know what he sad to me. I can't get angry, coz I understand, that they are marred.
What I wanted to ask.
I feel really bad if I would like to accept job that I want. That would be better for me from the carrier side.
I feel, that I owe them. But from other side, it's my life, I came here to work in my profession and now I doing something different.
I would be really bad person If I would live. But then I remember how my boss was screaming on me, his words and actions. He is dangerous to deal with. I'm scared, that co he would get offended he would say everything to immigration office and they would not give me a visa in the future.
I'm totally lost.
But i feel really bad inside. Just when I'm thinking about this situation, tears showed out. I cant held it. I'm really unhappy and stressed. I never feels that bad in my life.
May be someone can give me some advise.
Thank you.